My dad is in the construction industry

He's an engineer

But I was too much of a brainlet in math to do engineering

So I just did something that was writing intensive since I'm good at writing

With the aim of just finding a generic deskcuck position and working my way up

i probably wouldve gotten into philosophy if I didnt miss the deadline

but now I can do it as a hobby which is nice

Yeah all the memes aside it's actually a pretty decent major

In burgerland at least philosophy majors have the highest average earnings of any humanities major

Lots of companies hire people with humanities degrees as much as people meme about them

Add in the econ and connections and I'm pretty hopeful about landing a decent job

I want to work and live in NYC though so hopefully I can find something there

My dad used to work there for many years but got a new job last year outside the city

doesnt sound bad at all

you're gonna make it

Looking forward to a stressful life surviving on Ritalin and cigarettes

just like in the movies

Yeah it's weird, its almost like I want a life I'm unsatisfied with

I want a small Raskolnikov-style apartment in some dingy building

And have some sort of underground subculture that serves as my one release

sounds romantic

not impossible

Yeah it's pretty highly possible funny enough lol

I still don't know what the fuck I want out of life though

I feel like I want to eventually get married and have kids but the idea still sounds so scary as to how close it is

Like I don't even feel remotely ready for that but I'm already 23

yes people these days tend to wait until everything is settled

too risky

I'm always scared about getting married, having kids and then losing interest in my partner

I'm worried about growing tired of my partner

That happened with my old gf when I was 18

But perhaps I've grown since then and maybe we just weren't compatible on that level or whatever

I just don't want to go through a fucking divorce and have a broken family

if you manage to find a pure virgin waifu (hah!) you wont even have to like her that much

just enough to feel safe and cotnent

a man needs a haven

thats the point of a wife

and a daughter preferably

to soothe his struggle

I just worry about getting bored of them