I can, but not everytime

After some years, I've got a lot better

just try your hardest with it man and it you feel it winning just remember that you can't let it win

I'm gonna tell you a story lad

Theres this kid I know, he got into some trouble because of the shit in his head. Got himself committed to one of those head shrinker places right? No big deal. Hes smart, he knows he can handle it. But one day he overhears one of the doctors talking to a nurse and a psychologist.

"I dont think that kids gonna make it past 18. Hes a lost cause."

That kid took those words and said "Fuck you." He shrugged off the labels that he and others forced on himself and rebuilt himself into someone. Someone hes proud to be. Dont let *anyone* define you. If you've got shit in your head that's fucked that's just fine. We all do. But the minute you resign yourself to "This is just how I am" you lose my dude. It's a war against that shit every day. Dont give up.

The only easy day was yesterday. Shit's rough, but youve either gotta suck it the fuck or get help. Youre not allowed to fucking quit.

It took me a long time to figure that out. When I first got back to the states, I was a mess. All I wanted to do was drink. I didn't want to be around anyone, I didn't want to do anything. I wanted to ride the fucking self pity train til I died.

Then I woke up one morning and said "I either I get my shit squared away or I blow my brains out" well I'm getting my life together now.

It's a daily struggle, but it's fucking worth it bro.

Still with a lot of doubts

Bro, youre always gonna have doubts

Thats the fucking disease

That's what it does

The reason so many people deal with depression is literally because there's nothing to stimulate us anymore

I know who I am and I'm never pretending to not be

But at the same time, I get very lonely 'cause of it

What state are you in?

State you mean location or mental state?

Constant fear and misery

If you get that reference you're excellent

Fear and loathing?

Filthy Frank

Damnit

I live in a constant state of fear and misery, do you ya miss me anymore

Location

And lol showed one of my boys filthy Frank today

Nice

A shitlord in the making it sounds like

Ya watched a ton

We have the fucking goon house atm shits fun af

I read that as trap

Just lifting and being apes

You have a trap house

AND TRAPS ARE GEY

Goon house?

LIKE THE NAVY

Are y'all partying?

I live abroad

GOON HOUSE

Too late

It's a gey house now