Message from @AKAlexei
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My son...
And I can't stop crying...
I would rather spend eternity in Hell than even a second in his bullshit heaven
Vent
You need to
Emma and I were having a lot of problems in our relationship... but I accepted it... when she told me that she was pregnant with our son... I thought maybe it was a chance to... idk... but it felt good... and now... now my heart and soul feel like ash
I've done nothing but cry
I feel the gods trying to offer my some sort of comfort... some watching from a distance... mourning as I do... but there is nothing that even MimÃr could say with all his knowledge and council that could grant me peace...
I feel as though the world is once again on autopilot... I have grown to have a love hate relationship with this feeling...
Because it means that this is a point in time that is fixed... I have no choice but to go through this...
This is my fate... so be it... may my son be taken into the arms of the valkyries
And what do you want to do in this moment?
Or what will you do?
What I want to do is to mourn
And what I will do is call my SSgt, tell him I won't be at PT today... and then mourn...
Didn't know you were at the military
Army? Marines?
I'm in the delayed entry for the Marines
They didn't know about the pregnancy
We found out after I had signed the paperwork so the plan was for me to just play dumb until after I made it through Parris Island and be "surprised when Emma showed up with our son" at my graduation. That way no questions would be asked, they could just get the paperwork started to ensure that she had child support and benefits
Hope everything gets well for you and her as soon as possible
Thank you
Everyone here feel your pain
Everyone in here have been in some pretty messy shit situation as well
And It's ok to talk about it
All I ask is that you all pray to the gods... pray that my son will rest easy... that he will not feel pain... that he will feel comfort...
And that he knows that his mom and dad love him... and miss him very much...
Sure we will, partner
Don't worry we will pray
@AKAlexei , my heart breaks for you brother, I too will pray. May Freya watch over him
Sorry for the loss
Thank you...
I appreciate it...
@AKAlexei it's Friggs child now and I'm sure she will care for him well
I'm... I'm not sure how to feel about that... but I appreciate the sentiment that she will care for him and love him as her own...
Thank you
When I say he is hers now I mean he is in her care , he's still your boy but I'm sure she will care for him as if he was hers
Frigg will watch over him brother, trust in that, perhaps you can meet him one day in Valhalla.
You know, it's funny. I've been asatru since I was about 19. But I've never been of the belief that I deserved a place in Valhalla.
I don't feel I'm worthy either but,Valhalla is something that's earned only Odin can make that decision