You feel anger and sadness

You know I keep telling myself that if everything I believe about the gods is a lie and that the Christian God is truly the one true god... then he can go fuck himself...

Because he abandoned me a long time aho

*ago

And now I've lost my boy...

My son...

And I can't stop crying...

I would rather spend eternity in Hell than even a second in his bullshit heaven

Vent

You need to

Emma and I were having a lot of problems in our relationship... but I accepted it... when she told me that she was pregnant with our son... I thought maybe it was a chance to... idk... but it felt good... and now... now my heart and soul feel like ash

I've done nothing but cry

I feel the gods trying to offer my some sort of comfort... some watching from a distance... mourning as I do... but there is nothing that even Mimír could say with all his knowledge and council that could grant me peace...

I feel as though the world is once again on autopilot... I have grown to have a love hate relationship with this feeling...

Because it means that this is a point in time that is fixed... I have no choice but to go through this...

This is my fate... so be it... may my son be taken into the arms of the valkyries

And what do you want to do in this moment?

Or what will you do?

What I want to do is to mourn

And what I will do is call my SSgt, tell him I won't be at PT today... and then mourn...

Didn't know you were at the military

Army? Marines?

I'm in the delayed entry for the Marines

They didn't know about the pregnancy

We found out after I had signed the paperwork so the plan was for me to just play dumb until after I made it through Parris Island and be "surprised when Emma showed up with our son" at my graduation. That way no questions would be asked, they could just get the paperwork started to ensure that she had child support and benefits

But I guess that isn't necessary now...

Hope everything gets well for you and her as soon as possible

Thank you

Everyone here feel your pain

Everyone in here have been in some pretty messy shit situation as well

And It's ok to talk about it

All I ask is that you all pray to the gods... pray that my son will rest easy... that he will not feel pain... that he will feel comfort...

And that he knows that his mom and dad love him... and miss him very much...

Sure we will, partner

Don't worry we will pray

@AKAlexei , my heart breaks for you brother, I too will pray. May Freya watch over him

Sorry for the loss

Thank you...

I appreciate it...

@AKAlexei it's Friggs child now and I'm sure she will care for him well

I'm... I'm not sure how to feel about that... but I appreciate the sentiment that she will care for him and love him as her own...