Im ok, ish. Im stressed the *FUCK OUT* at work and haven't even given a single damn thought about my 21st birthday which is fucking tomorrow... i just dont care about life anymore. Its so boring unless you have money and friends. I have neither. I dont even really play my favorite video games anymore or listen to music that i like. I dont feel depressed because thats what "being an adult" is all about. Ive just come to expect being tossed to the side and being forgotten. I used to have a bunch of friends before graduation and no one has even texted me since then. Thats been 2.5 years... i just feel like theres no point in trying to get into dating too. I look like garbage and my life is so uninteresting that who would seriously want to be with me. I try to have hobbies and interests but i always put work first as a priority. My boss is a bitch too and ive been looking for a new job for a while now but cant find anything around me that isnt part of a union or doesn't need qualifications and shit like that... i feel trapped...
And before yall start telling me that it will brighten up i know it wont. And no, im not suicidal. Killing myself would be absolutely ridiculous and pointless... it wouldn't solve anything and would put my pain onto my family.
