I woke up

I wish i didn't

Fuck

Why is this happening?

Two days in a row spent like fifteen minutes meditating. Homie asked me for a reading on if he was gonna fuck a girl. Told me her name. As soon as I touched the cards I got an image in my head, asked him if she was blonde, brown eyes, like 21 or 22, and wore glasses. Motherfucker hits me with "wait do you know her?"

@Reptile it gets better

No matter how long it seems like it wont

Get some sun, its good for Reptiles

My sun is dead

My light withered away

The one in the sky will still come up tomorrow

https://www.patreon.com/smallpaux

After 10 years of major depressive disorder, i was just happy for a while because i was with her, and now all my life's work is fucking gone, no meds work, no antidepressants, no antipsychotics, she was truly my only reason to live
And now it's fucking gone
That's the thing
That's why it's so painful

5 months ago i smiled for the first fucking time in 8 years

God fucking dammit

AAAAAAAA

trust me I know what it feels like to be living for one person and have them ripped away

cheating is so disgraceful

Its not going to feel like it will get better

Not for a while

Even once it does, you wont feel it

I don't want it to get better, i want to stop living

I'm fucking done

You want to stop being in pain

I'm just done

You dont want to die, Rep

Dont lie to yourself about what you want

You want the pain to stop

I'm just

Really fucking depressed

Last night while i was breaking down, i almost had one of my violent episodes, i grabbed the knife but stopped my own hand

Fuck

@Reptile why?

whats going on

Thats not great, but you stopped yourself

Read above

A bit

@Nobody

You knew it wouldnt help

Give it some time

See the sun rise in the morning