If that's indeed what "Ryan" said, and not an alteration from the medium, I'd find that very suspicious.

so i gave my body to him and let him live my life

nah he didnt ask for my body or anything

i was in pain, he was just sorta... there and i pleaded for him to just takeover my life because i didnt want it anymore

even if he didnt want to... like i said b4 hes told me he thinks dense flesh is uncomfortable

Well, then I'm not entirely sure why he would make such a request. Did anything in particular befall you when he was let in? What did you experience? And also, what was going on with this medium you're referring to. What was going on during the channeling?

the other medium just sorta walked up to me and said “hey theres this guy who says he knows you and wants to talk to you”

then he just sorta...disappeared, and let ryan talk in his body

it was creepy as hell, not so much because i was afraid of ryan or something

i just never rly understood what he was as a kid

Well he's a medium though right? I think that's what they do

i had no concept of a “spirit” as a kid

i thought he was alive like everyone else

So this has been with you for a long time

yeah

long time

ever since i was a toddler

i just want someone to help me...talk to him ig, i want to ask him who he is

Well, as I've said before, I'd encourage you to evaluate the experience. If this is your guide, I would pray and even give offerings, as they will be reciprocated with visitations, a strong bond, and with that--a clearer understanding.

and ill be prepared this time unlike last time where it caught me off guard

still tho, do you know anyone here who could help me out on this?

@kore_khthonia do you work with spirits?

I have a guide, but other than that, not too frequently. At least not these days.

When I was younger I was always wary of like, inviting the wrong thing in, lol

I'm off for a nap. I'll return later.

cya

@kore_khthonia who are they?

when i was young, i was naive... idk

He revealed his true form a few times, taking the form of Krishna. But originally I thought he was some kind of tulpa. Definitely a sort of animus figure

thats fascinating

i used to call ryan the “other me” because of how often i let him handle shit in my life

i dunno how else to describe it...

he could tell you in a better way than i could lol

I think he was helping you because of your depression.

depression?

You mentioned you were overwhelmed by life and didn't want to be alive

why would a spirit want to help someone like that?

Compassion.

yeah, that’s true

Or maybe you knew him in some other life, in some other form.

perhaps