@Osteos
You can also look into Raziel.

He's the angel which rules over secrets.

Or Marbas, the demon prince of secrets

the way she describes schizophrenia is truly terrifying

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@Diadact that's a very interesting read, hope she takes medication now

I wonder how much schizophrenias hallucinations are formed around our own knowledge

she later describes it takes the form of what you believe

I bet people from different cultures hallucinate different things

she said they have 3 things in common always

it's some sort of authority figure, only you can see and hear them, and they have superhuman powers

She said someone might see Jesus in the place of the alien, or Satan

You're right in your assumption it's based around culture

its an interesting book, but can be hard to read, due to her mental state the way she firms sentences are strange

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Interesting, she talks about feeling like nobody can help her, but it never seems like she entertains the idea that none of what she's seeing is real. Or maybe knowing that is meaningless?

or maybe schizophrenia also impacts the ability to make that kind of determination

She understands it's not real. In the book she has a conversation with her doctor and he tells her it's good she understands that's it's all in her head

the problem though is that she says even if she realizes it's not real that doesn't make it go away, in fact they get anger and violent if she tells them their not real

She eventually got better after 20 years of it, and was able to live a normal life

She said that her mind eventually created another being that's sole purpose was to stitch her back together again

I think it's so interesting that after 20 years the mind realized the only way to fix oneself was to create another character to help her

that's incredibly fascinating

She said this character would refer to himself as a figment of her imagination and was there to help her

hypothetically, does that mean she could have stopped it all at the start by believing she could?

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i did like three more lol

Becuase it sounds like she basically tricked her brain into thinking normally

Possibly, she said she knew all long what the fix was, but she said the other half of her brain had to "figure it out on its own"

really interesting how the human mind is so intelligent it can come up with that kind of solution subconsciously

@PugThug awesome, post em here my guy

Certainly goes to show how much of reality is based on our perception of it rather than something objective

Can you imagine being held prisoner by your own mind for 20 years like that?

and then after all that time of not trusting your hallucinations, having to learn to trust one of them to fix herself

the human mind is a hell of a thing

I can understand persistant hallucinations, but the whole "threating you" bit I have trouble with

How can something that can't interact with anything else be a threat