Message from @Z to the C

Discord ID: 304358587927363596


2017-04-19 20:44:34 UTC  

@VokunConroy it depends on the severity, though mental wounds are harder to heal and sometimes they never heal all the way

2017-04-19 20:44:58 UTC  
2017-04-19 20:45:15 UTC  

I don't have anything close to ptsd just issues with confidence and fear of failure

2017-04-19 20:45:33 UTC  

I suffered from both very intense physical abuse and emotional + verbal abuse and I must say that in my case its a mix of both that causes my ptsd

2017-04-19 20:46:59 UTC  

Because on one side you have being scared of things like loud sounds or yelling or sports (being hit during them for example) but also when you're younger the emotional and verbal abuse really pushes you down and makes you feel completely worthless, which is something I've gladly overcome but it took a long time

2017-04-19 20:47:22 UTC  

I'm incredibly worried for Cody because I dont know how severe things are, but I just cant help but seeing myself in him

2017-04-19 20:47:31 UTC  

I can vouch for that its an overwhelming thing that practically controls your life

2017-04-19 20:47:51 UTC  

I have a lot of trouble in College cause I'm afraid to even leave my dorm sometimes

2017-04-19 20:48:04 UTC  

The way I cope with getting made fun of is often times making fun of myself or being sarcastic with my ego

2017-04-19 20:48:12 UTC  

And i don't think that helps

2017-04-19 20:48:12 UTC  

And the problem with that is that I remember attempting suicide multiple times from the ages of 10 to 14 which is terrifying because no one ever thinks of 10 year olds trying to kill themselves

2017-04-19 20:48:24 UTC  

^

2017-04-19 20:48:35 UTC  

But its a thing and therefore I worry

2017-04-19 20:48:47 UTC  

I wish I could do something more direct than just donating

2017-04-19 20:51:57 UTC  

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2017-04-19 20:52:02 UTC  

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2017-04-19 20:52:04 UTC  

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2017-04-19 20:52:11 UTC  

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2017-04-19 20:52:15 UTC  

o.

2017-04-19 20:52:18 UTC  

lo.

2017-04-19 20:52:22 UTC  

llo.

2017-04-19 20:52:25 UTC  

ello.

2017-04-19 20:52:28 UTC  

hello.

2017-04-19 20:52:30 UTC  

sup

2017-04-19 20:52:46 UTC  

I remember depression and trying to hurt myself when i was still in school,even though i told people why i was and was being mostly honest with it ever one didn't listen to me for the most part.

2017-04-19 20:53:16 UTC  

I feel farty today

2017-04-19 20:53:30 UTC  

Thanks for the info.

2017-04-19 20:53:34 UTC  

oh

2017-04-19 20:53:40 UTC  

dark subject i see

2017-04-19 20:54:13 UTC  

@Repzion You should do more of these live-talk streams, it was fun watching 😃

2017-04-19 20:54:15 UTC  

Did you eat something that gave you gas bevsi ?

2017-04-19 20:54:35 UTC  

been

2017-04-19 20:54:44 UTC  

I ate avocado

2017-04-19 20:54:52 UTC  

No wait

2017-04-19 20:54:55 UTC  

I had cheese!

2017-04-19 20:55:02 UTC  

I'm lactose intolerant

2017-04-19 20:55:25 UTC  

Rip

2017-04-19 20:55:46 UTC  

dont die

2017-04-19 20:55:51 UTC  

Did you cut the cheese ? Hehehe @💧HisoMachi💖

2017-04-19 20:55:57 UTC  

Lol yes

2017-04-19 20:56:05 UTC  

Been cutting the cheese