Message from @Krelin
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I doubt you disappointed your parents, that's hard to do
no, but considering my parents wanted me to do well, and when I didn't meet expectations, it just made me feel the most horrible feeling of self-loathing i've felt, and I've never really gotten a hold of it.
It pretty much comes and goes depending on whatever circumstances I find myself into + how my mind decides to perceive these situations.
Like I go through periods of times where I just don't want to be anywhere, and then after a while, it just goes away, and everything is okay-ish.
Your parents have expectations, but they also want you to be happy
However cheesy that sounds
All my parents want is for me to be independent and happy
Yes they'd prefer it if I was the head manager of a bank or something, but they're happy if I'm happy, and I'm sure your parents are the same
Probably?
I don't know sometimes.
I feel like they rather see me be doing well first before I feel happy, but I don't know. I'm not a good people reader.
And it's probably something my state of mind is making up anyway.
Then talk to them you dolt
I'm not sounding like a victim am I?
You can always just take my route and say "fuck it"
Focus on yourself first
Not sure how old you are, but the younger you are the more time you have. That's time you should spend furthering interests of yours.
Early 20s
Yeah, now's basically your moment in life to decide where you're going from here
Relationships tend to distract
I mean
I felt locked in too
Considering my family wants me to be this big strong provider man for my future family
They dont know what i actually do
And how its not compatible with their vision
😐
I'm pretty financially locked in
Like, hardcore locked in
No re-dos or rebates
And I don't even know if I'm going to like what I'm doing.
I am too
My dad spent more than 10k on me for auto training
Mine's greater
And more crushing
Because mistakes were made
Well
Unless you added another 0
Believe me your not as fucked as you think
It's pretty close
to adding another 0