if my partner doesn't buy me gifts I don't feel special enough :c

lol

:

adam what is this coded message you are sending us

he's saying "i have a small dick" in code

anyway

xD

i've always been more of the make their favourite food/write them cute songs and poetry kinda gal

and a lot of touching, touch is my language of luuuuuuv

but gifts weird me out

i like poetry

I mostly just want people to spend time with me and buy me things

as for gifts idk

spending time is fine

gifts feel materialistic

exactly ❤

also one of my exes thought that if he bought me something it meant he had the right to have sex with me at any time, even if i was asleep lol

so gifts have a baaaaad association for me lmao

because its that feeling of owing someone something even if you didnt actually ask for anything in the first place

thats weird, but i just buy things idc if people give me stuff in return

not a lot of people are like that unfortunately

my best friend is, which is cool but i still feel bad for not being able to give back

my sister is

i'm juggling two jobs, one paid acting engagement and soon a fourth volunteer, but paid position

money isn't easy, i just got out of university too

it's weird, i love giving gifts but i hate getting them

my entire paycheck for december went into buying gifts

oo acting

ooo financial uncertainty

it'll take me 5-10 years of consistent working and networking before i can live off of it as an independent director in my own company

in the meantime it's kinda take what you can get in terms of jobs

at least its a start

if its what you wanna do

yeah i know, atleast i'm not naive and moving into a big city thinking i'll be discovered whilst wiping down tables at jamba juice

average movie scenario

you'd be surprised how true it is too

but fuck that noise, i wont wait for it to happen, i'm gonna work my ass off to make sure i can make it on my own

samrt.

yes the mispelled version

and i'm surprised it happens often

Sorry I fell asleep