It's like it's impossible to succeed, so I'd rather just be destructive to people

idk, thats just my personal experience, probably very different from yours, but thats where I'm coming from

ah, I honestly dont think I can get behind that reasoning in all honesty, fruity

@JD going outside doesn't do much for me personally. Like I said before it just feels like another thing to do, and i always panic because I know I'm just wasting time when I could be doing something else.

but I'm sorry to hear about the crisis

does anything come to mind when you think of the "something else"

^was about to ask the same

No. Just that there is something I should be doing.

ah okay

Hope everybody is having a relatively good night! ❤

thanks! you too!

Thank you.

blah blah

And I can sorta understand what youre saying with the something else, but for me it is specified.. so I'm not too sure what to say about a non specific because in all honesty I have trouble coping with the specific already..

So i guess, the walk would be beneficial for the rabbits, and make small goals as to how much you want to get done in the writing or programming, whichever you choose to do, it helps to realize you reached those goals, even though they might not be big, and if you havent reached them, it gives you something to look foward to getting done, so you'll hopefully feel that your doing something

writing down the goals in an agenda or sticky notes or even just a list on a paper or document on your computer could help organize it too

I struggle with goals because I either forget about them or find a way to ruin them.

And I can't keep an agenda or anything.

I always forget to update it.

thats why you should make small ones, like, "rough outline for the storyline, then another could be characters and giving them a personality and traits, then another is writing the opening bit to your story or first page or chapter, idk how long your stories are

I don't always use outlines and I finish of characters within a matter of minutes. Those aren't really my problem.

ah

At the best of times I can write roughly 200 pages in a week.

wow

It's hard to explain

I think the best way to word it is that no matter what I do, it seems like a waste of time or something like that.

ah alright

It's hard to express because my mind is an absolute disaster.

I'm sorry to hear that

well dont worry about trying to explain then, its fine. Just do whatever comes to mind first tomorrow then

It's not reasoning, it's a feeling

It's just a primal rage. I want to destroy what I can't have

Usually I just sleep honestly. Nothing comes to mind first because everything always hits me at once.

Also relatable to a small degree.

I'm not qualified in any way to properly help with any feelings like this, so the most I can do is offer advice from personal experience, I'm sorry I couldnt be of much help.

ah

Cant really relate to that

It's fine. Nothing can be done in my current circumstances anyway.

my behaviour tends to be more self destructive then outwardly (?) destructive

Writing sounds good. I wish I could do something like that with creative talents, but I don't think I'd be good at writing

I tend to lean more towards self destructive, but I participate in both.