Message from @Blade-Runner49

Discord ID: 535711406985707532


2019-01-18 06:41:43 UTC  

I think that having a long string of sexual relations comes more from trying to replace a lack of an emotional bond that was seeked but not attained, and that was then replaced with physical relations with various people. Its not so much a matter of not being able to have an emotional bond or preferring to have a physical, but trying to replace something that isnt there otherwise, at least for the circumstances I'm thinking of

2019-01-18 06:41:59 UTC  

Yeah. Which makes me afraid because I was emotionally isolated as a child, most relationships I saw between adults weren't that good, my parents divorced when I was about 12, don't know if I need to go on

2019-01-18 06:42:47 UTC  

ah

2019-01-18 06:42:53 UTC  

What mentally I want and my capacity for feeling are not in the same, and at times contradict each other

2019-01-18 06:43:56 UTC  

Well I will be heading off to bed, Goodnight all of you wonderful people.

2019-01-18 06:44:03 UTC  

Nighty night

2019-01-18 06:44:06 UTC  

gnight voodoo chan

2019-01-18 06:44:09 UTC  

Don't let the clowns bite

2019-01-18 06:44:22 UTC  

I can't imagine myself being promiscuous, nor do I want to, but I've questioned my capacity for romantic feelings lately

2019-01-18 06:44:27 UTC  

Good night

2019-01-18 06:44:31 UTC  

Does anyone want to hear a poem before I leave?

2019-01-18 06:45:06 UTC  

ah okay

2019-01-18 06:45:10 UTC  

and sure

2019-01-18 06:45:16 UTC  

Violets are blue
Your blood is red
Your window was open
I'm under your bed

2019-01-18 06:45:36 UTC  

if you look like your profile pic I'm not against that

2019-01-18 06:45:37 UTC  

<:phone3:457955334254755840>

2019-01-18 06:45:42 UTC  
2019-01-18 06:45:44 UTC  

lol

2019-01-18 06:45:45 UTC  

10/10

2019-01-18 06:45:46 UTC  

911

2019-01-18 06:45:52 UTC  

I have an emergency

2019-01-18 06:46:02 UTC  

911 whats your emergency

2019-01-18 06:46:07 UTC  

My pfp is Revy from Black Lagoon

2019-01-18 06:46:17 UTC  

Someone broke into my house

2019-01-18 06:46:33 UTC  

*but in, like, normal 3D hooman form. Still against 2D girls

2019-01-18 06:46:44 UTC  

Do they have a weapon? Is there any where you can hide?

2019-01-18 06:47:07 UTC  

I'm hiding behind a couch

2019-01-18 06:47:14 UTC  

I'm sending a car out to you, whats your location

2019-01-18 06:47:14 UTC  

I'm still pretty young, but I feel like I've always been deprived of having any close friendship, and emotional support from my parents. I've always been socially excluded

2019-01-18 06:47:20 UTC  

Oof

2019-01-18 06:47:25 UTC  

Bye

2019-01-18 06:47:44 UTC  

Night

2019-01-18 06:47:44 UTC  

bye voodoo

2019-01-18 06:47:49 UTC  

have a night

2019-01-18 06:48:09 UTC  

I've even thought before that I may be a narcissist

2019-01-18 06:49:05 UTC  

My whole sphere of feeling and understanding is really cross-wired and loopy

2019-01-18 06:49:38 UTC  

ah okay

2019-01-18 06:51:02 UTC  

I dont really know much about narcissism, I dont think I can give much input on the topic in all honesty

2019-01-18 06:51:41 UTC  

I'm probably not a narcissist but I wouldn't rule it out

2019-01-18 06:52:38 UTC  

mentioning that youre still young, some people do show some narcissistic traits in their youth but dont turn out to be actual narcissists in adulthood

2019-01-18 06:53:56 UTC  

Yeah, it's mostly because the line between having ulterior motives or being genuine is blurred to me sometimes, and I hardly ever feel guilt