I can feel my left lobe surging with immense electrical activity as stupid and retarded as that sounds

I got way too excited yesterday

usually I fair better with lucid dreams

take it easy and fly away

not yesterday

maybe the heat fucked me

Thing is, I used to dream increadibly vividly, before I started on my current medications in '06. The trade-off was worth it, because it helped me level out, but since then I've been slowly but surely getting my dream powers back.

ehhh

for me regular vivid dreams are more rare

however lucid dreams half of them have overrealistic vividness to them

I can phisically feel the texture of cobblestones and other crap I touch

medication for what

hyperactivity?

No.

Ah, aye... mostly I go for the "earned my sleep" state.. but when I do the dreams I manifest are all the more hyperreal.

Depression.

Understandable

But also I couldn't get a full night's sleep.

I haven't touch midn altering medication yet

I hope I can go without it

just vitamins and minerals

Only things I go for is nicotine (vape in the modern), caffeine and a touch of wine.

sometimes I come home HANGRY but i aint taking no chillpill for that

ill just eat like a horse

oh yeah

Thing is, before getting on those meds, I once had a moment while trying to fall asleep (was attempting to learn meditation at the time), there was an incident where I ***felt*** the dark side calling to me. It was a really fucked-up moment, and ever since, I've never really been able to meditate.

maybe all that coke I drank 5 years straight must have fucked my head

it was then I had a sillence of no dreams for 3 years straight

during that period

caffeine did something

with the tons of sugar

The only drug I really take (aside from meds) is caffeine. Last year I chose to severely cut back on my caffeine intake, reducing the 4-6 cans of soda a day to one. Doesn't seem to have affected my dreaming at all.

I was drinking 2.5 liters/daily of coke

almost ended up with type 2 diabetes

I ran into that when I was in puberty involving some rather *perverse* aspects that caused me to forcibly recoil from my shadow.

replaced water basically

I did get over it, using guided meditations.

I scared myself with that one.

after I was close to type 2 dyabetes I went of Hardcore keto and lost 30 kg in 70 days

I still drink soda every once ina full moon

but not to replace water with it like in the past