and then it came to an end because it had to

Its the same with everyone Im honest to

Friends and girlfriend. Always go away no matter how hard I try. So why bother gaining some?

I dont know other than maybe you havent found the right person

finding true friends is difficult

a lifelong struggle sometimes

Plus a relationship can be a big distraction. It's basically enjoyment and less freedom.

in my experience atleast

haha relationships can be trauma too

Wasn't traumatic for me but quit depressing

Quite*

Either way I'd personally rather learning to be a PI and not get distracted from my work

When I began dating my girlfriend we were just similar, I've found out now we are almost universally different. She has trouble with a lot of things like depression and her parents force things down her throat like educational opportunities in STEM fields despite what she actually wants to do with her life but its more than that that makes up our connection

im just going to make music idgaf about anything else

Or end up working for nothing socially

I've attempted suicide twice and I dont know where Id be without her because shes sympathized with my struggles too

yeah my last gf got me into therapy and shit

was v helpful

My ex had BPD and rushed things a lot.

that might be a lot more difficult on your part

Said bullshit like she still loved me after dumping me then a few days later got a new boyfriend.

no thats not right

sounds like you got the trauma

Its whatever

That's not trauma

sounds traumatic

i guarantee you she was fake from the beginning

we like to relive trauma

I've felt much worse for sure

Nah she was geniune

I can tell

im not saying that its bad

just how i think we are

But she was lying a lot so I didnt argue with her about simple things

Our opinions on things werent the same so she let it be the death of our relationship

Which Im fine with because I wouldnt of ended it because it would've hurt her

pain is part of the deal

always is

The thing that hurt me though is being abandoned and thrown away like nothing for the 1000th time.

Especially from my first girlfriend. Which she was the last person I'd think would do it.

Oh well it is what it is.