That's not trauma

sounds traumatic

i guarantee you she was fake from the beginning

we like to relive trauma

I've felt much worse for sure

Nah she was geniune

I can tell

im not saying that its bad

just how i think we are

But she was lying a lot so I didnt argue with her about simple things

Our opinions on things werent the same so she let it be the death of our relationship

Which Im fine with because I wouldnt of ended it because it would've hurt her

pain is part of the deal

always is

The thing that hurt me though is being abandoned and thrown away like nothing for the 1000th time.

Especially from my first girlfriend. Which she was the last person I'd think would do it.

Oh well it is what it is.

abandonment is something i think we repeat again and again if we cant process it

atl east that applies to me

Maybe Im just too socially idiotic to have a lasting friendship or being close with anyone for a long time.

Probably you just havei ssues like most people

Either way Im not letting it get in the way of me getting my job

In fact it might just benefit me

how old are ya btw?

Who cares?

just wondering im 27

I care obviously cause i asked lol

It doesnt matter what my age is. All you need to know is that I'm going to some college.

aight man wasnt trying to dox ya lol

The college sounds pretty good but I wonder if it really is.

I know.

I'm just saying my age doesnt matter.

yeah i guess not but its still interesting and can serve to inform

Fine, 17.

Ah lucky

Not really

nah ya got time!

I hated being 17 with a passion tho

People normally judge me by my age.

im not judging

i just thinking about how i felt at that age