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https://twitter.com/Health_n_Hubris/status/957821575407067136

Jesus Christ that's actually abhorrent in the eyes of God.

I joke about that shit, but that could actually be considered abhorrent.

Yup

I saw it

and to an extent

*I do to*

lol

Sometimes i think about becoming a monk

Is this normal

I definintely think about becoming worse things

It's the only worthwhile idea that makes sense to me

God is the only incorruptible substance, why wouldn't i devote my life to that

To consider a monastic lifestyle is somewhat normal for our time.

However as of this moment, we, as a people, cannot afford celibacy.

"Go forth, and multiply."

That's my issue

I feel so conflicted when i read Augustine

Sins of the flesh can destroy our relationship with God

I feel like the modern world holds no value

"And you, be fruitful and multiply, increase greatly on the earth and multiply in it.”-Genesis 9:7

The modern world holds no value presently,

in the same way a molecule of carbon holds no intrinsic value alone.

But over time, and cultivation of pressure, and friction, and an excess of work on behalf of nature and geological force,

that carbon molecule, binds with others,

and grows in mass

and become coal,

and as the same process occurs,

that coal compresses

into a diamond.

Our lot is a special type of earthly hell,

one that was in essence cultivated by our recent ancestors fulfilled by their own ignorance, lust and subsequent guilt.

But it can and will be reversed, it's just a matter of our own hope and determination.

But I say unto you, That whosoever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart

Women have really negatively impacted my relationship with God