nothing was stopping you from getting out of bed except your own thoughts

I know

Redemption is a beautiful thing

forgiving mother solved it or anything else ?

Silent prayer and forgiveness. I mean, the depression was on and off, I was living alright but still 'lonely' when Idiscovered Jesse's channel

yeah understand

the silent prayer feels like meditation to me i cant do it

oh

loneliness isnt a bad thing

I tried to meditate throughout my life with little success

the silent prayer... immediate success

i dont have many friends i dont care at all

Well I mean emotional craving

that kinda 'loneliness'

I don't mind being alone

oh

now

i prefer to be by myself honestly

in most circumstances

Yeah. Most people are fallen anyway (myself included perhaps)

so they're not necessarily good for ya

hmm

I used to have really bad panic attacks. This panic attacks reason why I started seeking God.

This attack was so bad. All my organs start destroying.

Like stomach pancreatic etc

a panick attack is usually a condition of a past event where u were in a situation that u were attacked

It was really scary shit

I'm not joking

Now I'm sure I was possess

anxiety is a type of psychotic behavior but the books changed that outlook on it

20 yrs ago it was considered psychotic

pharma changed it when they came out with drux

I love to told Jesse my shit story. It's unfortunately Americans not like Russians. And my story not so matter for JLP listeners. I overcome alot shit for ~ half of year .

no ones story matters to alot of jlp watchers

could u imagine anyone story being in matter to someone as such as slut_maker for example?

jlp's fanbase is ppl seeking to be saved or fixed

the story only matters if it helps an individual overcome

either that or theyre all mighty high horsing in delusion

which it might

it just may

there's always atleast one willing to listen