thats an illusion

I am a beta.

you feeling bad for them is playing God

they arent your responsibility

you were theirs

and they messed up, like most parents do

Dunno.

Since I was a kid, I loved my parents a lot.

i got over it too in the way you describe

i love my parents now and i loved them before i forgave them

But my dad beat my mom and my mom was too focused on her own issues to deal with me.

but my dad scared me when i was a kid

my mom coddled me too much

she mocked me a few times

it could be as small as your mom yelling at you when you did something you werent supposed to

im sure its not that small but it could be that small

and then you got scared, or thought differently about her, broke your 100% trust in her

then that mood becomes your personality over time

because you never told her you know she didnt know any better

Okay, if they are not my responsibility, which is true, what can I do more than pray for them to God?

and you didnt forgive her to her face

forgive them!

or, apologize for holding it against them

stand up to them

I do not hate them. I hate that they do not want to fix their family.

acknowledge what they did wrong, and tell them its ok you recognize they did the best they could and you were wrong for holding it against them

My anger is not against them. It is against their demonic attitude.

you're not supposed to judge them though

look, everyone who needs to do this sounds like you do

im not going to force you lol

the devil was telling me all the same things

You're right.

I should NOT judge them.

My bad.

I will just let all in God's hands and help for a good outcome.

shes such a good person, shes perfect, dont do it now, maybe she's going to be mad, how could you be so ungrateful

thats the devil speaking

same with my dad

bro, to anyone else, they were great

that doesnt mean they didnt offload their sins on me

and if i didnt apologize i would still have fear, i would still get angry, i would still be addicted to pot and jerking off