repent meaning, acknowledge what you did wrong and ask God for forgiveness

I spoke to my mom about what she did wrong, she got angry on me.

and boy does he forgive

yea they wont like it LOL

they want you under their thumb

My dad became defensive...

of course

both my parents did

they convinced themselves it was ok

Ye.

and now your life is messed up because of it

i dont know what you do

but its likely theres some kind of addiction or anxiety or sin that is hard to control

anger maybe i dont know, you dont have to tell me

Well, my life was messed up but Jesus saved me.

But now, Jesus is cutting me to pieces.

He kills me, my old nature.

yes we have to become broken before Him

Yes

So... he called me to street "preaching" (call people to repentance).

And I am in terror.

I fear so much people for some reason.

dont just tell your parents what they did wrong, and don't just be like i love you i forgive you and im sorry for being a punk either

did you fear your dad?

When I was a kid, ye.

But now, no...

He is like a hurt child.

so you have to acknowledge they didnt know any better

but that doesnt make it right

And my mom is also like a hurt child that clings to illusions that satan presents to her.

My parents are worthy of mercy. I feel so bad for them.

jesse would call you a beta for that

I understand that they didn't know any better.

thats an illusion

I am a beta.

you feeling bad for them is playing God

they arent your responsibility

you were theirs

and they messed up, like most parents do

Dunno.

Since I was a kid, I loved my parents a lot.