@Xychotic I am definetly passed rage but I struggle with meaninglessness at times I'm a minimalist now so my life is simple stable and satisfactory for me
@Reaper You’re a resigned man. You have resigned from your biological imperatives, which has lead you to resigning other aspects. Now you either willingly bear a burden of your choosing or you remained seated on this steady rocking chair.
@YuriBezmenov that's exactly how I feel about it too like why burden myself even for the persist of "insert hobby or passion" if it causes me to have to interact with clown world it totally bitters the experience I literally just want to be left alone now
I don’t blame you, and honestly time will be your foe and your ally. Idk how long you have been feeling this way, but for me it was 2 years of apathy towards society, the material world, my friends, family and ultimately myself.
Its been about close to 2 years in which, Ive decided to live to dedicate my efforts and time to myself. I have goals, I have aspirations, I have passions. I have a certain amount of time to achieve at least 50% of them, to let me know I’m worth existing or else the shame of failure at that point might result in an action I have no insight on.
I am very much so a family man, but i hate the never ending bs drama that family creates for itself (mainly brothers, and cousins) but overall I 100% agree @YuriBezmenov
@Mr.Black honestly I’ve dropped from meeting my extended family. I feel indifferent to them, I know I just have a different perspective than them and the conversation will be meaningless for both parties. With the older crowd, I get a cold shoulder for being the young buck so I know I have no place to converse with them.
@YuriBezmenov ah, i have more or less done the same by using distance as the great excuse, but the more time goes on the more i am becoming jaded with family (not mother and father or the little ones)
It's funny I was in a motorcycle accident about two months ago and the rehab process over the past few weeks has made me pretty appreciative of just having full mobility, I ran for the first time since the accident a few days ago and it was solid reminder that shit could always be worse and it's possible to enjoy the little things if you change your perspective
@Reaper unfortunately we got to build slow and steady. Remember we will hit speedbumps, but we got to keep on drudging along in those bad days (and even periods.) Also we must not get overwhelmed with joy during the good times, because thats when we have to maximize our efforts. Every so often look back at the accumulated benefits of your efforts, to remind you why and what youre doing and why you must continue.
I would love to get a bike, but my father told me "it's the one thing i loved, and the one i had to give up because there is no walking away from a accident"
