Message from @Deleted User

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2019-03-19 01:28:42 UTC  

Anybody else here abstaining from porn, masturbation, etc?

2019-03-19 01:29:10 UTC  

Me

2019-03-19 01:29:20 UTC  

I will when my hormones don't lower my iq by 10 points when I don't.

2019-03-19 01:29:28 UTC  

Been doing Nofap on and off since 2014

2019-03-19 01:29:54 UTC  

@DoubleFreedom I am getting caught up with Blast Wave.

2019-03-19 01:30:16 UTC  

The moth episode had me feeling a lot of different emotions.

2019-03-19 01:30:27 UTC  

The way the moth just sits there, close to another living being.

2019-03-19 01:30:43 UTC  

Like it needs the bond in a complete hellscape, and the Red needs the connection too.

2019-03-19 01:31:11 UTC  

If i dont have a wank at least five times a day i wona kill someone

2019-03-19 01:31:28 UTC  

@DoubleFreedom So he's just all "Nah... I just let it sit on my head until the sun comes up."

2019-03-19 01:32:03 UTC  

ach gut

2019-03-19 01:32:50 UTC  

Ja

2019-03-19 01:33:43 UTC  

So yeah, I'm at week two without slinging the ol' yogurt (Terrence Popp reference) to porn.

2019-03-19 01:33:51 UTC  

The urge to watch it has died out.

2019-03-19 01:34:47 UTC  

This is the longest I've gone without totally following through in probably years.

2019-03-19 01:34:53 UTC  

Pretty sad, fam.

2019-03-19 01:35:02 UTC  

But, can't change the past in that regard.

2019-03-19 01:35:10 UTC  

So not sad at all. A good thing.

2019-03-19 01:38:04 UTC  

I also haven't left the house much at all in the last two weeks.

2019-03-19 01:38:39 UTC  

The times I have left is to put some gas in the truck, get a car wash, buy some food, and go to my boxing/kickboxing classes twice a week.

2019-03-19 01:38:48 UTC  

Not a lot of human contact beyond my family.

2019-03-19 01:39:02 UTC  

So I am curious as to how this is going to play out once I see women around me.

2019-03-19 01:39:17 UTC  

I notice that my sense of sight, sound, and smell are clearer when I abstain.

2019-03-19 01:39:31 UTC  

But I also get more aggressive and angrier than I already am.

2019-03-19 01:40:21 UTC  

I have read that it takes about 90 days for most people with a pornography addiction for the brain to clear out a residual protein that goes through neural pathways that reduce neural plasticity in the reward centers of the brain.

2019-03-19 01:40:45 UTC  

And I've read that porn addiction is more powerful than heroin use in some instances.

2019-03-19 01:40:54 UTC  

And that it reduces frontal brain activity.

2019-03-19 01:41:13 UTC  

@Deleted User You might need to go your kickboxing classes more than twice a week

2019-03-19 01:41:23 UTC  

Yeah I know I will.

2019-03-19 01:41:37 UTC  

My Army physique and weight are coming back, and my appetite is too.

2019-03-19 01:41:43 UTC  

I'm almost back to 200 pounds.

2019-03-19 01:41:52 UTC  

Nice!

2019-03-19 01:42:18 UTC  

I'm already anxious though because I know women have an innate sense of a dude whose balls aren't drained.

2019-03-19 01:42:27 UTC  

It's a caveman level thing.

2019-03-19 01:42:33 UTC  

Yup. They do.

2019-03-19 01:42:35 UTC  

I just don't even want to fuck with them.

2019-03-19 01:43:08 UTC  

I'm trying to cultivate a physique and a readiness for hand to hand combat that is a no bullshit, no frills, real thing.

2019-03-19 01:43:31 UTC  

So that even the most bold and "independent" or "empowered" women will not attempt to fuck with me.

2019-03-19 01:43:38 UTC  

I've had women try to pick fights with me.

2019-03-19 01:43:50 UTC  

Just to see how far I will go, I am sure.

2019-03-19 01:44:06 UTC  

Well... guess what? I'll go all the way. Touch me, and you're getting knocked on your ass like the next guy.