Message from @Deleted User
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Anybody else here abstaining from porn, masturbation, etc?
Me
I will when my hormones don't lower my iq by 10 points when I don't.
Been doing Nofap on and off since 2014
@DoubleFreedom I am getting caught up with Blast Wave.
The moth episode had me feeling a lot of different emotions.
The way the moth just sits there, close to another living being.
Like it needs the bond in a complete hellscape, and the Red needs the connection too.
If i dont have a wank at least five times a day i wona kill someone
@DoubleFreedom So he's just all "Nah... I just let it sit on my head until the sun comes up."
ach gut
Ja
So yeah, I'm at week two without slinging the ol' yogurt (Terrence Popp reference) to porn.
The urge to watch it has died out.
This is the longest I've gone without totally following through in probably years.
Pretty sad, fam.
But, can't change the past in that regard.
So not sad at all. A good thing.
I also haven't left the house much at all in the last two weeks.
The times I have left is to put some gas in the truck, get a car wash, buy some food, and go to my boxing/kickboxing classes twice a week.
So I am curious as to how this is going to play out once I see women around me.
I notice that my sense of sight, sound, and smell are clearer when I abstain.
But I also get more aggressive and angrier than I already am.
I have read that it takes about 90 days for most people with a pornography addiction for the brain to clear out a residual protein that goes through neural pathways that reduce neural plasticity in the reward centers of the brain.
And I've read that porn addiction is more powerful than heroin use in some instances.
And that it reduces frontal brain activity.
@Deleted User You might need to go your kickboxing classes more than twice a week
Yeah I know I will.
My Army physique and weight are coming back, and my appetite is too.
I'm almost back to 200 pounds.
Nice!
I'm already anxious though because I know women have an innate sense of a dude whose balls aren't drained.
It's a caveman level thing.
Yup. They do.
I just don't even want to fuck with them.
I'm trying to cultivate a physique and a readiness for hand to hand combat that is a no bullshit, no frills, real thing.
So that even the most bold and "independent" or "empowered" women will not attempt to fuck with me.
I've had women try to pick fights with me.
Just to see how far I will go, I am sure.
Well... guess what? I'll go all the way. Touch me, and you're getting knocked on your ass like the next guy.