Pretty sad, fam.

But, can't change the past in that regard.

So not sad at all. A good thing.

I also haven't left the house much at all in the last two weeks.

The times I have left is to put some gas in the truck, get a car wash, buy some food, and go to my boxing/kickboxing classes twice a week.

Not a lot of human contact beyond my family.

So I am curious as to how this is going to play out once I see women around me.

I notice that my sense of sight, sound, and smell are clearer when I abstain.

But I also get more aggressive and angrier than I already am.

I have read that it takes about 90 days for most people with a pornography addiction for the brain to clear out a residual protein that goes through neural pathways that reduce neural plasticity in the reward centers of the brain.

And I've read that porn addiction is more powerful than heroin use in some instances.

And that it reduces frontal brain activity.

@Deleted User You might need to go your kickboxing classes more than twice a week

Yeah I know I will.

My Army physique and weight are coming back, and my appetite is too.

I'm almost back to 200 pounds.

Nice!

I'm already anxious though because I know women have an innate sense of a dude whose balls aren't drained.

It's a caveman level thing.

Yup. They do.

I just don't even want to fuck with them.

I'm trying to cultivate a physique and a readiness for hand to hand combat that is a no bullshit, no frills, real thing.

So that even the most bold and "independent" or "empowered" women will not attempt to fuck with me.

I've had women try to pick fights with me.

Just to see how far I will go, I am sure.

Well... guess what? I'll go all the way. Touch me, and you're getting knocked on your ass like the next guy.

I've had to tell women to stop touching me.

"You're handsome. You should feel HONORED."

If a thot tries that with you in class, lift her up and Batista Bomb her.

Right... honored that I'm being groped by some random woman. Boy, I'm so fucking honored.

@LOGICWINS Nah not in boxing class.

I do one on one sessions in a very small, no nonsense one on one gym down the street.

Coach is an ex cop and also an Army vet.

I'm just talking about out and about.

When I had hair down to my shoulders, I constantly had women trying to pet me.

I wanted to fucking kill them.

Actually punch them in the forehead.

But I just stood there and fucking SEETHED.

Because I know I would have probably gotten shot or arrested or both.

It always boils down to "FEEL HONORED" that they're giving me attention.

I'm not even exaggerating.