@Erby you mean imagination? That just means you have an active imagination. When you get those thoughts, You know you will never do the thing you are pondering. The thought of you holding the power to do such a thing scares you, doesn't it? It's natural. Just remember you are in control and even though you could have the ability to do such a thing you won't. If you are not aggressive nor do you have sociopathic tendencies then firearm ownership should not be scary. Remember that if your brother supports Biden then you really should not trust a guy who would vote for a dementia ridden candidate. Being a loner in school or from the way you phrased it i guess you would get defensive when people picked on you, you know you wouldn't kill them. So yeah if you're that worried get some training, take a class on handguns or rifles.
