I know i could get addicted to painkillers. Painkillers derive from opium

I’m a lot happier on my pills lol

At some point you temporarily forget

Or at least

More stable

Stability who needs that? <:KEK:726877368601411624>

Well me if I don’t want to die or kill someone <:KEK:726877368601411624>

What if you do both?

Murder suicide

I like it

Die from killing someone (yourself) <:thinking:726878987837636698>

Lmfao

I don't like killing anymore. The closer you are to your enemy, the more personal it feels

Big brain time

What if you are your own worst enemy?

It feels like a white shock when you kill someone close

I choked a man to death

Rookie kill <:troll_face:726878856585281557>

It was a job

Nice

Using an assault rifle is less personal

Duh, and rifles are cooler

Gotta *mow down* the competition

Choking someone to death is a powerful feeling between life and death in your hands

I don't doubt that

Playing at it and doing it feels different

It's a power the good willed wish to never have

I don't want to kill anymore. I gave life and the thought of taking life away gave me a new perspective

Do you wonder if it's a manifestation of the evil that's within?

Idk. If i were to do it again i can still do it, but it's going to bother me because i used to drug myself up with pcp to kill

Are you okay?

I can definitely kill if my life is endangered

Are any of us ever ok

I am fine

I barely remember the fire fights i have done

It's awfully concerning when someone says they used to use PCP to push themselves to kill...

It is not personal, and makes killing painless and less raw.

i'll walk right out of this conversation <:KEK:726877368601411624> pretend i'm not here

Lol hi

How's your holidays so far

I used to be a very violent person which worked pretty well with my job at the time