And realized I was using it for what I already wanted to use it for

Amazing

i used to think i was ugly and useless and a failure for dropping out, had no respect for myself, and it showed

same

This

and once i got the suicidal ideation mostly worked out and started working on that

but then i realized programming is just not a thing I can learn

gave up the dream and I'm kinda better now

signed up for different course

different university

so far so good

Ive always wanted to do uni

But its just not going to work out

self-respect does a lot more than someone who hasn't built it up might expect

College is the same level anyway

i used to be a tfw no gf, still am but for v different reasons

idk about where you are but uni/college is the same shit here

went from "nobody wants kaytee" to being too fkn picky

Its different in the Netherlands

Uni is more prestige

College is practical

Job skills etc

But Im sick anyway

there's no difference here

you get a degree anyway

its equal

IBS is killing me

it's not "tfw no gf" now it's "tfw no gf who does all the shit i'm into" and it's like 100% self respect and the shit that comes with self respect

you can do it too

I love my gf

I love life

I love people

The world is beautiful

>company buys a bunch of Google glass
>blind on the right eye
>can't be switched to left
>whole company acts as if this could throw me into deep depression and is fakely-nice to me
wtf

I can take so much more than I used to fo

*do

oh i fucking hate people and i hate the world, but i don't hate myself and that's enough for people to bother you asking for your number

You are blind?

How did that happen

Im half deaf from birth

In one ear