those are v effective if you put the effort in for em, anything that'll really bring you out of this will be effort but worth it i promise it's worth the effort

They can fix you uo

*up

And life does get better when it gets easoer

*easier

and once you handle the wanting to kill yourself thing you can start working on self image and that's a real fuckin game changer

this

Such a relif

*relief

When I found a self within me

And realized I was using it for what I already wanted to use it for

Amazing

i used to think i was ugly and useless and a failure for dropping out, had no respect for myself, and it showed

same

This

and once i got the suicidal ideation mostly worked out and started working on that

but then i realized programming is just not a thing I can learn

gave up the dream and I'm kinda better now

signed up for different course

different university

so far so good

Ive always wanted to do uni

But its just not going to work out

self-respect does a lot more than someone who hasn't built it up might expect

College is the same level anyway

i used to be a tfw no gf, still am but for v different reasons

idk about where you are but uni/college is the same shit here

went from "nobody wants kaytee" to being too fkn picky

Its different in the Netherlands

Uni is more prestige

College is practical

Job skills etc

But Im sick anyway

there's no difference here

you get a degree anyway

its equal

IBS is killing me

it's not "tfw no gf" now it's "tfw no gf who does all the shit i'm into" and it's like 100% self respect and the shit that comes with self respect

you can do it too

I love my gf

I love life