lol hell no, I've studied this kinda thing from many points of view because i fundamentally lacked the very essence of this to such a degree my previous depression was a state of perpetual self induced numbing denial. I only point towards the road/path that we and many have followed, in time i hope to grow upon this too

The Clinton Body Count Series
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https://thegoldwater.com/news/29430-Clinton-Body-Count-Series-1-How-FBI-Agent-David-Raynor-Stabbed-And-Then-Shot-Himself
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http://thegoldwater.com/news/29628-Clinton-Body-Count-Series-2-Who-Killed-Seth-Rich
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https://thegoldwater.com/news/29923-Clinton-Body-Count-Series-3-John-F-Kennedy-Jr-dared-to-run-for-the-same-Senate-seat-as-Hillary
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https://thegoldwater.com/news/30536-Clinton-Body-Count-Series-4-Shawn-Lucas-Who-Filed-Fraud-Case-Against-DNC-and-Hillary-Found-Dead

👇 5
https://thegoldwater.com/news/30915-Clinton-Body-Count-Series-5-Woman-Set-to-Testify-Against-Clintons-Blown-Up-in-Home-Explosion
👇 6
https://thegoldwater.com/news/31896-Clinton-Body-Count-Series-6-Anthony-Bourdain-Suicide-or-Murder
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https://thegoldwater.com/news/31954-Clinton-Body-Count-Series-7-Carlos-Ghigliotti-The-Man-Who-Knew-Too-Much-Waco-Siege
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https://thegoldwater.com/news/32593-Clinton-Body-Count-Series-8-The-Murder-of-Vince-Foster

For the majority of my life I’ve only ever had short 10-30 second dreams of lucidity usually waking up as if pulled from said dream state; furthermore the nature of said dreams was very… artificial as if being studied/tested; so I never felt rooted within the moment and easily drew myself out of them.

As of a month ish ago I started trying to go to sleep with intent, trying to “enter” the void of darkness behind closed eyes and let my mind create visualizations of its own flourishion. This has more or less been peekaboo with my innate, in short it “showing” me some vague/fuzzy image until I “see” it and try focusing then lose it, usually takes anywhere from 5-20min to get one, and about 3 seconds to loose it… to say i’m bad is a understatement.

On a brighter note, I’ve had some luck within harmonization, or rather dissonance; being I’ve had a few dreams enwich i could embody a feeling/tone within the mind to a degree that reality echo’s the intention; such as flight or levitation… mostly ends in me getting pulled out of the dream tho.

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@Soldz (CF) what do you hope to get from your studies "here" and on these topics?

The truth or something like it

well here's the thing, the only "truth" you have is what your 5 senses show/tell you; but many views tell you these are the only tools in which your enthralled before; so in short the only truths you can every really have are the ones you create to be true, as every product of experience can be manipulated through perceptions to create the responses they demand… and that’s not even getting into the nature of what we call ourself; being a product of knowing. Mk ultra like programs and of the likes have shown just how “easily” the mind can be overwritten/modified; how entire personalities can be inserted/removed and more.

So what it really comes down to is what needs to be true to do what you do, and what needs to be true to do what you want to do?

~~Glad to see we got another mind brimming with critical thoughts...~~

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yeap--gonna get some espresso brewin' . .

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Hello

hey--howz yer day been, Soldz.....

A normal first day of school

Spending time with my girlfriend later

they go back, tomorrow--here....

ah, glad ya had a decent/normal day....

How was your day

thanks
fine
-- argh though ..weatherz hot Af doe
yep.. a "scorcher" today
and, argh, ..suppose to go up even higher 2moro
..to like mid-90s F 😓 ....
lol....

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It is pretty hot over here too

yep , buncha us must be getting some heatwaves ,eh!
-- Yeah though, ..yesterday marked the end (last day) of the (2 week long) New York State fair
-- yeah, ..had Fireworks n shiz, last night, ...yeah ..around here we kinda call that, the, "unofficial end of summer" , but

-- eh though, i gots feelinz we (all) gonna have a bunch more heat, still
hmm yah as i think, i think summer officially is till like Sept 21st
, ..ah, then..then we all usually have "Indian Summer" , ..like a 'week' of heat amd summerlike conditions etc, in early "October"

-- but yeah, heheh, ..once "Indian Summer" goes by heheh than ya 'know' → winter is fast-approaching, 😮
lols <:giggle:485714802123997184> ...

I cant wait for snow

ha! me neither,actually 😃

lols, i dont mind the winter..

i dont like "muggy-ass, sticky" weather lol

-- plus? argh ..too many freaking >Bugs around n stuffs in the summer/hot months 🤣 lol

Heh, cant do nothing 'outdoors', shit, unless you got tons of Spray/repellant/etc
and or ..citronella candles 😃 lol

but eh though ...(i think) there's a certain kinda "magic" to winter/wintertime

Not a fan of the warm weather

* specially round the so-called "xmas season, ..

But at least it gives me an excuse to wear no clothes

ah yep, thats one PlusPositive about it, heehee.. girls be wanting to strip-off their Layers, 😏

-teehee, me?..i even wear 'shorts' on the winter

i DO like to keep my house (Nest) "warm" in the winter, ...like 80'ish F