Message from @fallot
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I have been doing psychiatry lately, I really like it a lot. I think I will try to specialize in it, especially working with the craziest people at their worst
I'm a little annoyed I gave you the benefit of the doubt for so long, but I still believe everything I said at the time
I am the sort of person who needs progressively more stimulus in life
and now at this point in my adult life I basically need people to be screaming and attacking each other and having withdrawal seizures and stuff just to feel alive at the end of the day
if every day is not a literal riot then I go home feeling empty
do you realize you're just getting worse?
am I? look at the direction of the world
you'll be a pathetic shell at like 50
by the time I am 50 we might see global starvation
talk to me
please
dont bounce off me
no I am serious
I understand it's a gamble, yes
I could grow up to be 50 years old and in perfect health and everything being super boring
but I really do not see it that way
I think we are all likely to live through a world war, drone surveillance and some real dystopian stuff
as it is basically already starting now
so I do not see it as necessarily a bad thing that I am a person who needs progressive stimulation in life
and if it comes down to it, when I retire I want to draw comics
inability to see outside yourself
you obviously have some insight into your situation
in terms of mentality/psyche
and you realize its not okay
trebling down is not the answer, its not a solution, its the problem manifesting itself
the only way out is through exactly what you wouldn't even dream of doing
and probably would be afraid of
suicide?
no, no
self abnegation
it's not pain all the way down
the "medicine" for the pain
actually makes it worse
just shifts the misery to the end of life
or later in life, whenever, it's difficult to say
the real reason I want you to do the 24 hour exercize @Deleted User 57835c2c is to see whether you are actually a hollow person or if what I think is correct, that there's something in there that's good
what if I were a hollow person and good at the same time?
not possible
oh, but it really could be