she posted stuff about how the mormon church should basically go SJW and I called it retarded and she blocked me on social media

it was like one of the only posts I even made this year

a lot of people with your affliction use this SJW stuff by the way

have you noticed?

yes

I used to think well of these people ultimately, because I thought they were motivated by love, even if they were massively wrong to the point of evil

and that hasn't changed for most of them

but plenty of people use it in a different way, anyway that's a pretty big topic and can get a bit self congratulatory in an alt-right context so nvm

I'm interested

there's not much to it

they just use it as a justification for being a good person

while beating up other people with those values and standards

but in truth, they don't really care about anything but their own selves

which are either gaping holes or gaping wounds

these are the types who binge drink and use drugs and MDMA every weekend

yeah, terminally unhappy people

and do lots of yoga mindfulness bullshit but still struggle with depression

all of that stuff they do looks to me like window dressing

camoflague

yes

well there is a certain depression that comes with it

I grew up around well centered, good, spiritual people

so even now I have a bit of naivete about this

I mean.... if you are never allowed to just be you, and everything you have to do to financially and socially survive requires systematically ripping out your natural behavior and feelings and replacing it with "useful" alternatives, it messes you up

I don't know, I have some sympathy

but at some level, their plight seems self chosen

that is why I am far healthier than them

I keep my true self hidden and carefully guarded, they just destroy it

even people who are normal @Deleted User 57835c2c , comparatively normal

at the end of the day I know who I really am and why I have more than a gigabyte of HD pictures of the northern lights on my computer and no porn

relatively at ease with themselves

even they create myriad false selves

these people don't have the slightest clue who they are but they hope it's someone other people can like

so I wouldn't count on it that what you've guarded is true per se

I would

the only way to know is to look deeply into it

which is frankly, an uncomfortable experience for most people

I do, often

like I told you about Ludvig

Pardon my interjection. Are there even a whole gigabyte of unique HD photos of the northern lights in existence to be curated?

yes