Message from @Deleted User 57835c2c
Discord ID: 302163864496242700
they will never do it
and unfortunately this whole thing is a vicious cycle of positive feedback
to you it will seem a jolly good idea to double down on what people may perceive as your faults
the only way out is painful, it's diminishing
but after it's done, true growth can occur
you're not a dumb guy, I'm sure you know why you are as you are
I won't poke into it
it's your business
but IF you want to truly be yourself and be comfortable with yourself, and actually have some true worth that doesn't crumble away to ash and needs to be covered up by various crazy antics
you've got to come to terms with it, and you've got to come to terms with how you are now being bad
bad for you, and bad in general
no excuses
murica
sometimes you just gotta have that burg
hahahahahaha
wait wait
I think you can do it @Deleted User 57835c2c there are people way worse off than you
I am not certain why what I keep locked up inside needs to change if I can deal with my life as is
then there is no helping you
epsecially since I basically see myself as using revolting tactics as a way to deal with revolting people/situations
I am rewarding like with like
when you make that decision that no, this isn't okay
then there can be some progress down the path I have vaguely lain out
it's your choice
stop thinking about other people
think about yourself
that habit may not be easy to kill
instead of thinking about other people and talking about yourself
do the opposite
if you do choose the double down route, don't think you'll just stay as you are now
you'll get worse
of course "worse" may be a more successful person, who may even be well liked
that's the real choice here, true self vs. false self
Joe was very successful in business. He bragged that his narcissism allowed him to be tough-minded and make the right decisions even when it might be unpopular with his colleagues. He brought the same tough-minded approach to being a husband and father.
this is you
wuzzat from
Avoid the Four Horsemen – Learn how to stop Criticism, Defensiveness, Contempt, and Stonewalling.
you've got all 4 in big helpings