Message from @Aeryn
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do you do anything else to decrease it?
@Deleted User 57835c2c Not much else works.
Other than physical injury.
At that point, there's nothing in my head but the pain, the sound of my blood and processes to fix the injury.
I can't really explain it that well, I guess.
what sort of physical injury
@Deleted User 57835c2c Like bashing my head against the wall, or something like that.
Or, if I've ever had an accidental fall or cut or something, then everything goes quiet.
It's part of why I do the medieval reenactment fighting.
you do reenactment? what sort? SCA?
dog brothers? other HEMA?
It's been a while since I've done it though.
have you ever intentionally cut, burned yourself, or consumed anything you knew might hurt you?
Life, and other ruinous things getting in the way. Plus my last ex was rather entrenched in the Society, so I bowed out for a while to let things blow over.
what've you done?
@Deleted User 57835c2c Those are details I don't think you need to know for the situation at hand.
no worries
when did this all start for you anyway
@Deleted User 57835c2c When I was seven.
do you drink or smoke?
I used to smoke cigarettes, but I quit back in 2010
when did you start them?
@Deleted User 57835c2c 2007, just after I graduated.
ever smoke weed?
@Deleted User 57835c2c A few times before. It doesn't help with the voices, really.
when was the first time you tried it
But, degeneracy is degeneracy is degeneracy.
14
any other "drugs"?
Since it didn't help, I didn't pursue it after that.
Meh, I tried LSD and shrooms both once, but not at the same time. In trying to fix the shit wrong with me.
Nothing worked. Just a slight ego-death and the Voices.
have you ever seen anyone about all this?
He mentioned seeking help from a therapist
yeah, tell me about that
I missed that part