WHAT ARE THEY?

what do you think the voices are?

@MentalSyntaxError Misery

@Deleted User 57835c2c Misery.

The universe itself screaming back at me. Sometimes.

It's just Eternal Misery. Part of the curse that surrounds me, that's always surrounded me.

well yes, but what do you think the voices like... /are/? I mean I have a lot of misery, but my misery doesn't talk to me.

@Deleted User 57835c2c Well, they're either poltergeists from my own emotions that have always been whacked out.

Or, they're malevolent spirits.

Either way, it still shows me that I'm worthless, a failure and that life should have never existed.

do you think the voices are right?

@Deleted User 57835c2c For the most part, yeah.

The evidence shows it.

pessimism is almost like clairvoyance in how accurate it lets you understand things

It's either that I am the problem or existence is the problem.

whynotboth

do you ever do what they tell you to do?

@Deleted User 57835c2c No.

That would be degeneracy. Any actions against the outside world will only result in more suffering.

you have all this going on, it sounds like almost constantly, and you're able to hold work

Being TheGreatShiniGami is suffering

@Deleted User 57835c2c Yeah. That's because it's mental.

You just have to not say anything, and the occasional hitting-your-head on the wall looks like you just dealt with a moron. Which I do, often.

@Aeryn Being is suffering. Everyone is screaming inside.

I see

does it ever cause a problem?

As a man, you can be silent and gruff faced, and it's expected.

And not really , not when I'm at work and I have the stress conditions to make things work in concealment.

When I'm alone, I'll scream out loud and shit, because otherwise it just builds into something worse if I don't vocalize.

does that kinda relieve it?

@Deleted User 57835c2c Meh, not really.

It lessens it for a bit, but it always returns.

do you do anything else to decrease it?

@Deleted User 57835c2c Not much else works.

Other than physical injury.

At that point, there's nothing in my head but the pain, the sound of my blood and processes to fix the injury.

I can't really explain it that well, I guess.

what sort of physical injury

@Deleted User 57835c2c Like bashing my head against the wall, or something like that.

Or, if I've ever had an accidental fall or cut or something, then everything goes quiet.

It's part of why I do the medieval reenactment fighting.