success as a shell vs. tribulation as a real boy

that's a good way to put it

I would always take the latter

its not even a choice

what if all of my antipathy is genuine and unfeigned?

a shell cannot have success

it doesn't matter, I never said it wasn't genuine

the fakeness is your whole self

the fake self generates genuine antipathy

well, it does and it doesn't

my antipathy ironically stems from self improvement

ugh

you're becoming a vampire

no seriously, hear me out

sure

but I can already see the future, the near future

say what you have said a million times

I'll hear you out

"the more I improve myself, the more normal retards hate me/I hate them"

what variation will we see today

neither

the better I get, the further the gap is, the more revolting they become

maybe partly the latter

THATS EXACTLY THE SAME

I used to like people a lot, then the gap got too wide

this is delusional thinking

its fake

it's not though

it is

it just is!

my IRL credentials are not fake

its not even limited to you

its classic narcissism

credentials dont matter

no wait

I cant do this

IRL I am muscular, successful, attractive, all kinds of stuff going for me

there is no point

I eat only health food and have a ton of self discipline

I have a lot of talents

I literally am basically at the top of human quality