Message from @fallot
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if I was in your shoes, I don't think I would care, I'd do a good job
other than that if they live or die
it makes no difference to me
good people or bad, black or white
however much we can do now, in absolute terms its very little
medicine on balance has only now become even something that actually helps
most medicine in the pre-modern era would have been dangerous
outside of a few techniques and procedures
it's simple
this is the thought I woke up to at 4am
so of course one could argue that, as we all die, everything we do here is just temporary playing around
the way I see it, the purpose of life is to prepare to meet God, to cultivate virtue
spending most of my waking time doing something that isn't part of that is therefore a huge problem
and some might say "yeah but you can discipline yourself to figure out how to cultivate virtue through any activity"
but I don't really see it that way anymore, I can't explain that clearly yet though
why isn't it virtue?
remember
what personal virtue am I developing through this?
think of souls
I am; of mine
personal virtue, you're using a different meaning of virtue now
virtue as in good deed
no, earlier that is how I meant it
in any case
good deeds have a spiritual effect
I meant virtue in the sense of building up the self, your own personal soul, as a clean offering to God
and bad deeds too
both may not be apparent
the thing about that is
you are not the judge of curation of your soul beyond a limited extent
otherwise you could yourself decide
what is right and what is wrong
and do accordingly
at the very base, that IS what you have to do
you ultimately have to make a decision to follow some religion etc.
exactly
but other than that, it may not be apparent to you
why some things are good
and some things are bad
and the ability to decide anything is what this line of work has ripped away from me