Message from @fallot
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spending most of my waking time doing something that isn't part of that is therefore a huge problem
and some might say "yeah but you can discipline yourself to figure out how to cultivate virtue through any activity"
but I don't really see it that way anymore, I can't explain that clearly yet though
why isn't it virtue?
remember
what personal virtue am I developing through this?
think of souls
I am; of mine
not of worldly consequences
personal virtue, you're using a different meaning of virtue now
virtue as in good deed
no, earlier that is how I meant it
in any case
good deeds have a spiritual effect
I meant virtue in the sense of building up the self, your own personal soul, as a clean offering to God
and bad deeds too
both may not be apparent
the thing about that is
you are not the judge of curation of your soul beyond a limited extent
otherwise you could yourself decide
and do accordingly
at the very base, that IS what you have to do
you ultimately have to make a decision to follow some religion etc.
exactly
but other than that, it may not be apparent to you
why some things are good
and some things are bad
and the ability to decide anything is what this line of work has ripped away from me
that's why I feel it's my moral imperative to quit if I am able
intuition and scripture tells me that saving a soul is worthwhile
and it makes sense to me it is
as repentance is open to everyone, all the time
my religion tells me that not every soul is worth saving, though that is a back page secret
hence I would save even a child rapists/murderers life if I could
to later execute them
I wouldn't, and neither would my god, depending on the content of their souls
every life is not worth saving objectively
but subjectively
you cannot know
true, unfortunately