oh that reminds me

I have to vacuum up liberal tears

jeez, I half killed myself at the gym

been more or less doing german volume training

@Deleted User 57835c2c when you were talking about BJJ and I said something mysterious

what I meant is

the other person in the conversation doesn't realize that you are different

and what you say comes from a different place

I'm a little disappointed you've not changed, but it could be you have

and its simply not apparent to me

I fear that you will get worse rather than better

hence "if only he knew"

I am not bodybuilding

I am doing high volume training because I want muscular endurance

you talk too much about things like working out, diet/food etc.

and also

they are important to me

very black/white expression

and labelling

which isn't bad or anything

nor is talking about the stuff that is important to you

but it reveals a particularly self-centered focus that stands out

basically, narcissistic

which I hope you can overcome

another thing it's helpful to understand is that as a "doer," it's very important for me to make judgments about things so I can act

anyway, I just wanted t explain that, hope you don't mind

I really don't do this to bug you

I love you, and hope you become a good man who is happy with himself

oh, money, another thing you talk about a lot

of course. it's very important to me

not intrinsically, I do not give a shit about it and I almost never buy anything

but in this world you need to have a lot of it or you are fucked and enslaved

so the more money I have and the less slavery I have to endure to get it, the happier I tend to be

you'll never be truly happy or satisfied without resolving those issues

you are right though, I do not deny being a narcissist

@Deleted User 57835c2c people who are new here generally don't notice and take you at face value but others who have been around you long enough notice quite clearly

e.g. you turned off everyone in #heavy

and its not because of any disagreements

but just the way you come across and how you talk about things

I think you must be at least a bit aware of that

it's good to be aware of one's own failings