hmm

tbh we went out few times and i just approached few girls got rejected

but i just was doing what i would do if she was a dude

i just see her as a dude lol

no but i can shut that off

that sexual effect of a woman

i just picture her taking a huge dump and shit like that

and destroy whatever ideal was there

sexually, but also get to know her

if shes a unicorn than ur prob overlooking some things

exactly lol

so hear this

her ex wants her back

she dont want the label but wants to fuck around

but now

the dude got a job at massage

she is jealous

wants to make an ultimatum

i told her

wtf bitch u didnt want the label

u cant make any ultimatums then

so she agreed but now wants to apply as a sex worker just to show the appplication succeeded to him

and im like wow that escalated quickly

netherlands

yyeah

its like a legit house

with women u have sex with

or something lol

yeah

nope

nothing

im broke ass nigga

im not man

no degrees, no experience, indecisiveness

being lost

i have been for a long time

im good at music

but thats not financially stable

i have 2 skills and passions.

1 is music

the other is philosophy

and religious studies

both of which

are not a good way to make money

nto consinstently

dude

im really really good at it

im also like really thinking if i do music

like fully do it

i might have a decent shot

i got signed before

with a track

it is

but it will also make me happy

its already like all i do

i love it lol

no

MAKING it

i been making it since like age 15 but always for fun

i wonder what if i really work at it, i got the skills and basis already. also 10 years guitar

and i can sing reasonably well. i just never had the courage to

hmm

wlel

i been thinking

maybe someth like

web development

ez money

then i can do music with it and have stable income

oh

i digg

ah

i been into trading

it is

i wasnt that succesfull

i broke even pretty much

i tried the technical techniques

not analysis of news, but chaos trading

alghorithmic etc

yeah but then i think id be happy

being like a hermit

and have a studio somewhere

and i just write tunes

and smoke a few green ones

thats all

then id be happy

few good friends, fewe girls, and time to read and do my studies

true

i mean studies as in

personal

what you WANT to read

cause something is drawing u in

thats a very important part of my life imo

a good intellectual life is very important

ur intellect is ilke a muscle if u dont use it

u become retard

thats important

im not atm if thats ok

thats not been going so well

thats a concern

i smoke a lot and stuff