@here buddy check boys. Seems like a lotta close friends are having a rough time last few days for unrelated reasons, and I wanna make sure y'all are good. Just saying there's people out there who are in your corner

This^^^

i bought a house and 2 days later the fucking deck collapsed

yeah fuck me

Big oof dude. But you still got a roof over your head

yeah just sucks because now i have to rebuild it, and i suck at that shit. im a car guy not a carpenter

Decks are shit to build. Stairs are infinitely easier.

@Doc you should have home insurance since you just bought it

id check and see if they will pay for a new deck

@Trash Squid 1k deductible, I can build a deck under that

You should call the realtor. My home had a 30 day warranty on any issues that happened. It was a courtesy and they fixed my plumbing a week in

^ same with our AC

Private sale unfortunately

Thank God no one was hurt

Also good that the new horse wasn't on the deck

For now put a slide where the door is.

Everyone doing good? If anyone needs to talk hmu

I ain't gonna lie I'm deep in the shit. Depression is taking my ass to town and I keep getting shuffled around for work. I don't sleep, barely eat, and any sleep I do get is to wake up terrified. It's the shit fam.

Anxiety through the fucken rooooof

What made you get like this?

A lady?

Or, idk

Just asking

I've been like this since I was 13 fam. Let's just say I have good reason to hate pedos.

I'm restless and trapped all at once

I mean, I have good reasons too

But what happened to make it worse?

@Foxhound glad you're reaching out homie. You know you got us if things get rough

Im like this since I was 16, and got new reasons to make my depression go deeper

> But what happened to make it worse?
@Sir Harndes

It's not that it's worse, I'm just always like this. Like, constantly. I'm always on edge, always stressed as fuck, always angry.

The simple fact is that I'm stuck getting flip flopped from different districts for work, my sleep scheduel is maybe 8-9 hours every 3-4 days and the damage to my body has me in constant fucking pain which makes depression worse

Have you thought of getting another job?

I know

Aint easy

But if its on your reach

Make some time for yourself bud, tell your work fuck themselves your a human an need time for basic necessities

Thanks for reaching out tho instead of perm solution to temp problem

We got ou king

Bruh I work 4 day weeks and get 3 days off

I also have 2 other jobs lined up

1 of which I'm already hired for

@Foxhound things should return to normalcy soon, and then you can take a small break, reorient yourself, and move onto a better career path.

See there you go, other jobs lined up already

Yee

My literal intention is to be working 2 full time jobs

We got your back fam

And when you get you rest up time, stay fucking away from drinks. We all like'em, but we know it aint good for our body too.

I will literally kill myself by working two jobs to attain comfortable living status

Make time for recovery

> And when you get you rest up time, stay fucking away from drinks. We all like'em, but we know it aint good for our body too.
@Sir Harndes

listEN LINDA STAY AWAY FROM MY WHISKEY

Oof

Dammit linda

No

I'll steal it

No more whiskey for u

My head isnt right right now. So ive been self medicating with music

Better then booze or boger suger

I wish i had the suger sometimes

If you touch my whiskey

I will cut your hands off

With a machete

Too late

And fucking feed them to you

Whisky is goos

Already stole it

BUT

*stop cosplaying the atf you fuck*

Dont let it take over you

@Foxhound how bout we get a whiskey together? Been meaning yo do a biynof traveling at some point

I dont shoot dogs

> @Foxhound how bout we get a whiskey together? Been meaning yo do a biynof traveling at some point
@thedarkness05

Bruh lemme know when and I'll try to be free

I hug dogs

Will do

I work wed-sat, off Mon-tues

I'm sure I can swing something like that
Its getting warm out and I'd like to go hiking

Theres a place not super far from me, or Allegany I think isn't terribly far from me

Bout an hour from me, give or take

I'll look into some spots near you

Did you just change your name from king on NY or am I crazy?

Copy

@hootenanny4569 we were discussing invading Canada

In general

I'll change it back lmao

Get em totenkopf

R A I D E R

Ok I just wanted to make sure I wasnt loosing my marbles

I lost mine qlong time qgo

Real talk though. Who else doesnt open up because your problems arent as bad or past trauma is as bad as someone elses

ngl - I was just about to say ""I live for these channels, but I have been really bad at keeping up on them""

( I typically don't talk much if I'm 15 min late and someone has it, and / or I have no immediately relevant experience )

Same

Gf and mom both think i need therapy

I probably do but i refuse to go

""wE aLl NeEd ThErApY""

Lol

> Real talk though. Who else doesnt open up because your problems arent as bad or past trauma is as bad as someone elses
@queefburgler


All the time, especially when others open up

If I am in a bad mood beer doesnt help. But Im usully good tbh

I dont. I stopped comparing issues, because its still equal and valid. Hearing others troubles puts things in perspective for me though. But I'll still tell y'all how I feel every now and then

Smashed that MF heart react

@thedarkness05
Yeah but when your troubles consist of issues that could be settled in a day when your brother's fighting for his life
Kinda hard to say anything

Like instead of not being an asshole i laughed at nurses dead friend on facebook then made fun of her when she messeged me about it

I just know most of my shit isn't being made better by my decisions - so I don't bother coming in to say ""yo yo haha I'm stilla mess niggqa!!!""

Lol

I just face each day knowing that I got people that would be disappointed if I quit.
And I put myself second

Thats a good idea

@jaguarknight I know how you feel. But you gotta share the weight, even for a day. Dosent make it wrong if you alsonhave some of your issues talked about. It the difference of decompressing and putting it out there, and having a plan of attack, vs just blurting each small thing for attention. I dont think anyone here is looking for attention or a pity party

Im just going through the motions anymore

I made peace with myself many years ago that I had more important things to worry about then my depression and havent been since. Im lucky Im able to do it but it took 3-4 yrs of work to get where I am now

@thedarkness05
I hope not, pity parties are big gay

Opening up honestly is good

Wake up.showrr. feed animals. Go to work. Fuck off for 8 hours. Come home. Make a half assed dinner. Play xbox or music . The crash at 2 or 3 in the morning

Tonights dinner consisted of goldfish crackers and Orange juice

When do you wake up?

Haven't had OJ in a while
Just don't burn yourself out my guy

Like 8 on the morning

My scedules fucked

And because im a mechanic and our nazi bitch of a governor has closed most of the state i make maybe 4 hours a day

Same here. But maybe you should look at mixing it up a bit. Or therapy. It dosent work for me, but you should try it once or twice

You should make a concous decicion to get minimum 6 hrs sleep EVERY night, prefer 7

The sec9nd reas9n i dont go. Shits expensive

@queefburgler
I feel that
Most techs at my shop have been making under 5 hours a day if that

Go find woods, find a comfy spot on the ground with blue sky above and nap, its fr very relaxing

Yeah

Try to exercize OUTSIDE more. Increased oxygen intake increases dopemineand makes ya feel better

@hootenanny4569 i woukd but im honestly afraid of the cops around here. Writing tickets and shit. Like i cant afford that

Sheeeeeeit i should rise my dirtbike

Ride

You have a national park around?

They closed in my state

Why would they ticket you for napping in park?

Thats fucking stupid

You know how some cops are

Its a NATIONAL PARK they cant close it

@hootenanny4569
You'd be surprised

Idk actually how that would work

No idea

Get the park rangers to enforce

Fuck em park somewhere you can and walk to the woods

Call it paranoia but cant really trust most people right now

If your all alone then you oughta be good, they only shut down toilets, pavallions and picnic tables

Should be

Im telling you bro if they have a problem just ask them why it's a problem to social distane from others and be innawoods?

If they say it is then just leave and dont come back

Too bad i didn't have a guille suit

Sit in a tree and yell at em and see if the could find me

But fuck that sounds dumb as dog balls on a goat

Yeah

Nm sucks

I really wanna see the lawsuits roll in against the government after this is over. But we all know the supreme court will sleep on most of it

I was in AZ for 14 months god I wanted to kill myself (metaphorically) as a PA boi I hayed the desert, fuck thay shit

Stuck, with no way to leave

Oh shit, another yank

I love the deser and the forests

Deser are tasty

Either one imo is great to run into if you know hwer to go

Nah man, forrests are my jam. The destert is neat, but idk about long term

Fucking much prefer forrest hills and mountians

Same

Long term fuck that. Too open

But as a way to get out yes

Call me old fashoned but I prefer my outdoors to be green, not tan 10mo out of the year,white for 3 days, green a mo and shit brown the rest

@hootenanny4569
What about a combo
Trees and brush
But sun baked and the mesquite wants to kill you

Yes but fuck the asian mesquite, they can die in a hell hole, mot useless thing ever, not even good polinators

Got damn i want some bbq now

They are not useless

Their wood is perfect for grilling or smoking

Mosquitos? fuck em

Yo
So
If a mosquitoes bites you and then bites your bro
Is that gay?
Cause you're literally inside him

Was your bro wesring socks

Wearing

Yeah

At that fuck you im going to bed, jk gnighg yall

And boots

@hootenanny4569
Answer the question

Then not gay

Thanks
Cause had me worried there

I need the night to mull it over

Night all

Yeeyee

Ill be for probably another 5 hours or so

Sleep

Go to sleep

Nooooooo

Your not my dad

At least get 7 plz

7 hrs also your dads prob not a degen weeb soooooookoooooooo

Hes not im the dissapointment of the family and stay out of my room fucker

Ok imma go to bed, plz at least tey to get a couple more hrs of sleep then usual, I guarentee youll feel better in the morn

Lol i

Maybe

Maybe not

Fine, thats all i can squeeze outta you gnighy

Lol

Buddy check
Y'all good?

Yeah chief, I'm doing as good as I can

Good to know, it's important that we don't forget each other

Course not, we're all one big ghey family, we take care of each other here

@jaguarknight no

Whats happening

What’s up bro

What’s up?

Sadness

Wish I didn't wake up anymore

So I dont have to worry anymore

Ooof Bud
I don't know what to say but that we're here for you

Can I ask what’s worrying you?

An existencial crisis that came form nowhere

Its been a while

I want answers, but I get none

I worry too much about people around me

The recent death of some family members really kicked my arse

Worrying about others is not a flaw
Being stuck there is
If you don't act on it then you'll just let it consume you

That sounds awful king, my condolences

You doing anything during quarantine?

I get too attached to people in my life. It hurts bad when they're gone

Sorry guys

Gimme a minute

Take your time king

Well

I try to to distract myself

Thats the only thing im doing

Dont see any reason to do anything else

Not much else to do I guess, what with everything being shut down

Try to pick up a new skill or two
A new language or improve

not in the mood

can't see the point

long story short, nihilism sucks

But I suppose I ran into this forsaken hole