after columbine

I'd rather thank capitalism for providing it's citizens without the necessary help that the handicapped, whether physically or mentally require.

so the school suggested "i be put into a mental ward" to "make me peaceful"

cause appairently being a masculine patriot with an interest in guns... is bad

YEah...

I'm not happy

Yea it probably is man

frankly i'm never happy

That was after... columbine

in like 1999

I was what? 10 years old?

the teacher regularly abused me and force fed me onion powder mixed with water

so i said i wanted to kill her

and *I* got in trouble

they didnt

dispite treating me LIKE AN ANIMAL there

What state do you live in

NJ

Oh New Jersey

yes

That sounds absolutely terrible

^

If I was down south

no one woulda thought twice

this is why i'm so fuckd up

and mentally unstable

if i grew up down south

i woulda fucking turned out fully masculine

and not insane

I think you have a false idea of what masculinity is

It doesn't exist as it's a man made concept.

To me it's stucking up for yourseelf no matter what

and speaking the truth dispite odds

and not being "passive" at all

You're you, but if you want to identify yourself as very male then that's fine.

well it doesnt help the fucking college I was in

tried to push this "genderfluid" shit onto me

What did you major in

saying I had masculine and feminine patterns in my brain

writing

i used to write professionally

What do you write about

cyberpunk shit

fanfiction

future wars

ect

i made maps and shit

madee alter egos

made chars

Oh I love geography and map making

realities i wish.. i was in

i hate this world

I dont like who I am physcally

the fact I literally "become" the chars when I write about them

and role play and act them

You're more than your body man, you have a personality and an energy inside of you

i think fucked my mentality

i miss it

I wish I was

i wanna go to the cons...

but no she thinks i'll get arrested for being "transphobic"

cause she KNOWS i associate with the alt right

i only do cause the left is anti sceince

They got movements like feminism fat acceptance and multi genders

thats anti science

Like she said "oh you'll edn up going with a girl find out shee's trans and get arrested"

and refuses to let me go

like god...

I'm pissed she knows about traps and crossplaying now

I know politics can be confusing and frustrating sometimes, but I think you should find some interests outside of that.

no thanks to MY BROTHER who does that shit

heh

my brothers more fucked up than me

but can hold a job

I got anger issues

Like it might be too aggressive to be apart of the alt right, or the extreme left when you have mental issues

i have a tendacy to get violent verbally abusive and physcally destroy property

Think angry grandpa

Yea so that's why politics might not be your scene

Might not be

Maybe gardening

I weent to school for that

but got out

What the fuck

cause of my breakdown in jan

Who goes to school for gardening

Oh

it's to learn

about how to... do all that shit

No no fuck that just plant seeds in the ground and learn the rest on the internet

Agricultural Engenieering is complex.

No it's not

All you do is dig a hole, put in whatever the fuck, then water it until it grows

Nah it's more complex

Monkeys can figure that shit out

like soil treatment

bugs

and shit

fertilizers

diseases