Message from @P4Fp2T3F7

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2020-03-19 05:09:15 UTC  

i lost my dad at 4 which means that i couldnt understand he died and so i learned each night that he died and wake up and still dont get it because understanding death is form 6 or 4 years

2020-03-19 05:09:30 UTC  

so i lost my dad each night for 3 years

2020-03-19 05:09:34 UTC  

Oh dear.

2020-03-19 05:09:42 UTC  

and so i become strong

2020-03-19 05:09:52 UTC  

Actually coming to think of it

2020-03-19 05:10:07 UTC  

It may produce a Bobrov reaction in the brain

2020-03-19 05:10:09 UTC  

That’s fine.

2020-03-19 05:10:24 UTC  

A trauma making someone mentally resilient or strong

2020-03-19 05:10:49 UTC  

my family does hate me since some month because im logical

2020-03-19 05:11:02 UTC  

so

2020-03-19 05:11:05 UTC  

I never had a trauma; but I have a super strong mental state.

2020-03-19 05:11:06 UTC  

my life is pretty

2020-03-19 05:11:08 UTC  

life

2020-03-19 05:11:13 UTC  

i got a trauma

2020-03-19 05:11:18 UTC  

at about 3 or 4 or 5

2020-03-19 05:11:22 UTC  

i dont remember when

2020-03-19 05:11:25 UTC  

but

2020-03-19 05:11:34 UTC  

my mom coming into a big room with 2 beds

2020-03-19 05:11:39 UTC  

after toilets

2020-03-19 05:11:48 UTC  

and me overthinking her as a monster

2020-03-19 05:11:58 UTC  

since this im still scared in dark

2020-03-19 05:12:03 UTC  

That’s an ingrained memory.

2020-03-19 05:12:08 UTC  

and i imagine myself being killed in every way possible

2020-03-19 05:12:10 UTC  

Must be pretty significant

2020-03-19 05:12:15 UTC  

so

2020-03-19 05:12:17 UTC  

yeah

2020-03-19 05:12:29 UTC  

also

2020-03-19 05:12:38 UTC  

i dont go to school anymore and so stay home alone

2020-03-19 05:12:45 UTC  

since 5 month

2020-03-19 05:12:45 UTC  

How old are you?

2020-03-19 05:12:47 UTC  

15

2020-03-19 05:13:00 UTC  

Your family probably doesn’t hate you

2020-03-19 05:13:03 UTC  

my profile pic is expressing my feelings i guess

2020-03-19 05:13:04 UTC  

Being realistic.

2020-03-19 05:13:09 UTC  

well

2020-03-19 05:13:14 UTC  

Christianity

2020-03-19 05:13:17 UTC  

they dont like me

2020-03-19 05:13:17 UTC  

Next

2020-03-19 05:13:18 UTC  

so

2020-03-19 05:13:20 UTC  

it's the same

2020-03-19 05:13:32 UTC  

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