Message from @Camellia

Discord ID: 672912542800019509


2020-01-31 21:07:14 UTC  

lol we eat and get drunk at funerals

2020-01-31 21:07:21 UTC  

NICE

2020-01-31 21:07:32 UTC  

Ive never been to a funeral actually

2020-01-31 21:08:20 UTC  

I was going to once but i didnt end up looking into it much, was for this lady who had helped me with some mental stuff my senior year of highschool

2020-01-31 21:09:08 UTC  

She brough service dog puppies to socialize and learn like 2-3 times a week in the school and also took the time to talk to and help some sudents who really needed the help

2020-01-31 21:09:56 UTC  

She was the first one to really get me to understand how anxiety and panic attacks worked and why learning coping methods and controlling the frequency was so important

2020-01-31 21:10:17 UTC  

First moment of clarity I'd had in a long time in high school

2020-01-31 21:10:34 UTC  

Last funeral I was at was for a really important family member to me

2020-01-31 21:10:50 UTC  

She died close to the end of the year. She'd gotten sick and got a blood infection
Died in her sleep

2020-01-31 21:11:00 UTC  

Sorry for your loss came

2020-01-31 21:11:20 UTC  

Its cool, its rolling up on 2 years and its really rough rn..

2020-01-31 21:11:32 UTC  

It comes in stages, 1st year is shock, 2nd is grief

2020-01-31 21:11:51 UTC  

And any mention of her or anything I see that was hers or from her really gets me crying

2020-01-31 21:12:32 UTC  

Im happy she went peacefully
I didnt have many things to say when they called me down
I remember everyone being really sad but i didn't feel similar
I only felt a great respect and gratitude towards the good she'd done for so many and was happy she went peacefully

2020-01-31 21:12:35 UTC  

but me and my mom are getting tattoos of dragonflys in memory of her

2020-01-31 21:12:42 UTC  

That's good

2020-01-31 21:12:56 UTC  

its said that after the death of someone, certain things happen

2020-01-31 21:13:02 UTC  

and seeing a ton of dragonflies is one

2020-01-31 21:13:08 UTC  

and thats what me and my mom kept seeing

2020-01-31 21:13:30 UTC  

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/228754920050786315/672912367545221180/20200131_204840.jpg

2020-01-31 21:14:12 UTC  

same with feathers and stuff

2020-01-31 21:14:47 UTC  

My choochie (great aunt) was telling me that after her mother passed, the room her mom slept in was completely rearranged one day when she entered

2020-01-31 21:14:55 UTC  

So she asked if it was her mother and a chair moved from the corner

2020-01-31 21:15:01 UTC  

She swears by it

2020-01-31 21:17:36 UTC  

Mmmm

2020-01-31 21:17:48 UTC  

I'm making homemade pizza for supper.

2020-01-31 21:17:53 UTC  

I got the dough rising right now

2020-01-31 21:20:47 UTC  

I actually am not a bad cook when I actually cook

2020-01-31 21:20:56 UTC  

I just don't like cooking much

2020-01-31 21:24:39 UTC  

Better send pics bb

2020-01-31 21:24:42 UTC  

Yeeeeyah

2020-01-31 21:25:39 UTC  

Can anyone else just kinda not stand watching most good mythical morning videos

2020-01-31 21:25:49 UTC  

The pacing just kills me most of the time

2020-01-31 21:26:06 UTC  

h-hullo

2020-01-31 21:26:48 UTC  

@Blackjax MY MAN

2020-01-31 21:50:45 UTC  

American politics are fucked lol

2020-01-31 21:52:00 UTC  

Sup peeps?

2020-01-31 21:56:58 UTC  

So weirded out

2020-01-31 21:57:37 UTC  

I was just having a normal drrwam, and then somoen calls my name in an accent I never heard

2020-01-31 21:58:11 UTC  

I kid you not, my heart stopped, I was scared, and then noped out of the dream into reality