@Draconic_kingpin the store was out of the cashews i buy

What did u do

My roasted unsalted cashews

How could u

Thats my depression snack

Now i bought goldfish instead

Relatable

I send draco a picture of ketchup on a cashew every 2 weeks (when i get paid and buy more cashew) and something bad happens to him whenever i do

Now i just have yogurt, goldfish im barely gonna eat, and depression

REEEE

I bought popcorn at least

But the brand i like was out and popsecret kettle corn doesn't taste nearly as good

And its more oily

FUCKINAY

y'know what, i'll stick with a banana

Kms i literally had a bag of popcorn and 2 thirds of a blueberry muffin thos morning with a litte peanut butter and forced myself to chug down some almond milk

The only reason ive been having second or third meals these days is cuz family cooking or buying me food its been a real convenient couple of days for that

But fuck i hate myself for not being able to EAT FOOD AHHHH

@Blackjax i gotta be in a real mood to straight up eat a banana sadly

They make me feel sick otherwise

And smoothies are too cold

small steps dude.

Ive been depressed for nearly a month now im gonna scream

Its only declining more and more

AND IM TRYING SO HARD

AHHHH

IM EVEN FORCING MYSELF TO STAND WHILE I SHOWER

Which I should be doing anyway but u kno

it might be an idea to see someone .

if you're getting bad again

It happens sometimes but i think Its my hormones fucking with me
It doesnt feel like something therapy can sort out being as i got a pretty good idea of what got me fucked up when i was in therapy

knowing what got you fucked up and talking about it is different

that's what therapy is for

dropping your guard and talking about your issues

My physical symptoms are down and my anxiety is down from it but the depression i got has increased

Ive been i know

That's what I have friends for

I go to therapy to keep myself on track

And also talk

But this isn't just a talking issue

Knowing whats fucked up helps you get to the root of it and do something about it