not hospital nurse nurse

Like home health

Take care of old and needy folk

yeah

that

once I had a chance to talk to him few years back

things got kinda sad so I told him

"I wish things are as they were"

and then he get my point and said

"I'm still the guy that played with you"

that fucking statement man

I’m not sure if that’s frowned upon in Korea but that takes a lot of patients, those kinds of talks destroy us man, seeing how things were and realizing how they are now

it breaks my heart everytime I see him

he's hunched, there's a big fucking shadow underneath his eyes

he doesn't talk to anyone

he used to showed me resident evil 2 and all that kind of crazy games

he tickled me like the world's going to end

and now he's this sad neet that came out of 4chan greentext

fuck me I wasn't planning yapping about my cousin for 10 mins

sorry about that

It’s terrible to see family that close fall so far. It shatters us and we gotta figure out what went wrong, the other day my gran forgot who I was entirely and I broke down because that’s the woman who raised me and instilled everything I know today, you’re good I just did the same with this I re typed it like 4 times trying not to break

I know the feeling man

my gran told me to fetch her coat to visit local old people's house

in 2 am

it took me 4 hours to calm her down

It takes its toll on you, that’s life there’s no stopping it but god damn it rips you apart like nothing

the funny thing is I wasn't like

oh woe is me this lady went down when I was calming her down

I was just thought "oh this silly old lady"

even when she lay down on the floor and went "please kill me"

I wasn't sad

until my mom came out of her room

and I saw her crying

Yeah there’s stuff that’s funny as hell they do but there’s others that get to you

the moment I saw her crying I realized what was happening

how it looked like to other people

that spectating

I guess it is a tragedy when you're far from it

It’s just another part of life if you’re far away but when you’re with them everyday caring for them, cooking, cleaning, joking around and listening to their story’s from life, gradually seeing them decline and for one day you walk-in and they look at you with nothing but pure fear not understanding who you are, screaming for help as some strange man is in their home it hits you hard and you just have to take it while you try to calm them

I'm so sorry man

Damn