I wouldn't talk to him for almost 2 weeks, I only just started sort of talking to him againt

the catering season has been really stressful on my mental state too, my attitude and demeanor has completely flipped since the Sean incident and my boss pulled me aside and gave me some resources for counseling and therapy

Damn sorry to hear that broski <:feelsbadman:589929333074821140>

Hope everything gets better

it's probably not going to for a very long time

but I appreciate the sentiment

So are you still trying to pursue a relationship with Sean?

Tonight I gave him some European Christmas cookies in one of those tacky metal tins, he was really happy about it because they're actually his favorite thing

I don't know

He said he doesn't want a relationship but won't expand on it and won't talk to me outside of work

He said he reads my texts (which now I send very few)

I don't know

I dwell on it too much already, I really wanted something serious with him

So essentially there's mixed signals but you're leaning more on its not gonna happen?

As much as I know you would love to be with him, I think the best thing right now is to only try and befriend him.

He's still recovering from his addiction right?

He's 1 year sober

I talked to someone who I trust, who's worked at the casino for 5+ years, she said he's done this before with other women but I guess I'm the first person to self-harm

Yikes

people at the casino have been doing this power move on me

people keep asking me if I'm pregnant and I have to admit to them I'm a virgin LMFAO

Better to be a virgin than a harlett.

it happened tonight while I was giving Sean his cookies, one of the other dishwashers comes over (he's an older dude from Louisiana, he's great) and he goes "LET ME GUESS, ARE YOU PREGNANT TOO?!?!"

"uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh I have never had a man touch me that way"
"oh... my daughter called me today and said she's pregnant"

Kek.

How old is his daughter?

idk

but he said it would be grandchild #14

me and sean: "holy shit"

other people have come up to me in the past couple months and asked if I'm having a child and it's growing very tiresome

Maybe they think you're fat?

Yeah, I am, but my appearance really hasn't changed much asides from losing fat in the past couple months

I'm not like Amberlynn Reid fat, thank god

I keep saying I'm a fucking fat ass and people keep going "NO YOU'RE NOT, YOU LOOK GREAT, YOU'RE OK"

Oh god not her.

<:keksico:643549918035836966>

yeah, that's good.

A couple nights ago, the expeditor tried to give me some bread (I don't like bread to begin with)
"Hey Sheep, would you like some of these bread rolls, we're going to throw them away"
"no thanks, I'm trying to watch my starch intake because I'm fat and no one loves me"
all the cooks were like "no you're not, don't say that"

the other cooks have been giving sean shit for the past month though

"why did you do this"
"we thought you liked her"
"why would you take gifts from her if you're not interested in dating her"
"it's all sean's fault"

*it's been great*

Well, I'm glad there are people defending you.