*Shrug* I'm fucked in the head. Sue me.

Modus ponens.

I dont think you quite have a context for the reality behind why you'd be that way in the first place @Five, Seven, and Two

@Psychedelic Corpse Fucker Nah, man, I ain’t keen on letting you shrug it off that easy. Did you really ask your own mother why she didn’t swallow you because you hate life that much?

@Kaiser Dion Napoleon Don’t ever assume you know my past, mate. We aren’t friends and you know fuck-all about me.

I'm not assuming, it just sounds like you might not

More to the point, now that you're alive, why are you removing agency from yourself and assigning your low quality of life to an externality that you can't control

@Five, Seven, and Two I did.

@Kaiser Dion Napoleon Because I’m not *currently trapped in a cycle of self-hatred and disagree it’s similar to self-deprecation or the ability to laugh at myself?

Yeah there's a big gap between self hated and humorous takes on our own foibles

@Psychedelic Corpse Fucker Do you blame her for being alive?

O.o Why did this conversation get so hostile?

So how would you accurately know the root cause of that without reading someone's mind?

@Xychotic Not hostile on my end.

Because they could easily be misinterpreted

@Kaiser Dion Napoleon I could ask you the same thing, couldn’t I?

Yeah but I never said anything about it being self hate and I wouldn't

@Five, Seven, and Two Well, I wouldn't exist if she didn't bang my dad

@Kaiser Dion Napoleon Psych was the one I was addressing for conflating the two.

@Psychedelic Corpse Fucker I don’t say this to be dismissive but as a pragmatic question: what’s prevented you from committing suicide?

I approve of this question.

Camus' existential question is on point for that.

Nothing in all honesty. I thought about ending it at the end of the month. @Five, Seven, and Two

I feel like that question answers itself. If someone hasn't committed suicide and has a humorous self deprecating view, it's due to being somewhat at peace with who they are

@Psychedelic Corpse Fucker This month?

@Five, Seven, and Two alright I stand corrected, maybe your right

Yes. However, I have best friends that would miss me. I also have my own personal dreams and ambitions.

Drawing, writing, and even drums.

@Psychedelic Corpse Fucker Is that why you didn’t do it last month? Or March of 2018? Or 2010?

Basically yes. I've got clinical depression. My mind is literally trying to convince me to kill myself.

Have you tried keto or carnivore?

Everything and anything=death

@Psychedelic Corpse Fucker So you’re alive now, despite clinical depression, actively refusing to commit suicide so far?

Congrats on that.

Also, try keto or carnivore.

They're being rebranded as anti-inflammatory diets.

And they might help your brain behave itself better.

@Five, Seven, and Two Yep. Not for lack of trying. But I'm not sad, I except whatever outcome is waiting for me. Live or die. It's all the same to me.

@Xychotic I mainly eat fruits and veggies

Time to change it up.

@Psychedelic Corpse Fucker Then how much longer do you plan to keep blaming others for still being alive when you’ve been well within the bounds of seeing to it, otherwise?