i basically just wnated to sleep till my mouth felt better haha

i didnt know how fucked up he was all the time until like 3 or 4 years ago he called me one day

and admitted to being a drunk, pill popper (i knew that part), and cokehead while i grew up, and that he was so sorry for it, and that he wouldn't have beat the fuck out of me so much if he was sober, and his drug problems made him snap on me, and begged me to forgive him, and he checked into rehab. was NOT a phone call i was expecting

(not seeking pity, growing up sucks for everyone in their own ways)

Dang.

but i thought that my dad just hated me and i triggered the fuck out of him, he wouldn't eat dinner with teh family

i was always allowed to watch war movies with him though

damn dude, it probably took a lot for him to make that call

yeah

i hope you guys are on better terms

he was crying and shit

yeah we are

that's great to hear

i told him i had forgave him years ago

it takes a strong man to come to terms with that

he's had a hip replacement, knee, both shoulders, hes had a fuckload of surgeries

most people just piss their lives away and step on the people that love them the most in the process

so the jew industries got him addicted to opioids is how i look at it

im glad he survived through it with drinking too

yep

a lot dont

I lost a cousin to suicide over opiods

i blame it on california

yeah, the only problem is is that he's almost 70 now, and is secretly drinking again when my mom has to travel for work

i dont want to tell her, it'd crush her. they live up in CO and i just feel like she doesn't need it

my mom's carried the family my whole life

she lived her whole life in socal, i suspect she started popping pills to dull the reality of this place being such a shithole. she killed herself when she'd taken all the equity out of her house to buy pills in mexico

yeah man. i lost 6 people who i knew for a long time IRL, but drifted away from, last year to opioids/other stuff too maybe

can you tell your dad to get his shit together again?

im going to try next time i see him

he's 70, that's gonna take a toll

tell him you want him around to see his grandkids

he came to visit me a month or two ago and tried to order me a beer at dinner but i was like dad no, its cool, i dont really drink

yeah

he's only got one that he hardly gets to see

well, tell him you're working on getting him more and you'd like him to be around for that

i never knew either of my grandfathers, they both passed before i was born

my brother is too fat and twisted, and fucked from being a haaardcore alcoholic for years, and i think is drinking again himself, i think he might be a closet fag honestly

yeah

i will

my parents were both the youngest of 4 and 5, so they were old-ish