i want to do something with my life experience man

i feel im on a level where i could potentially make a channel like HHH or Itachi

i just want to have an avenue to be black pill as fuck and spew out my thoughts

Okay.........you probably could..........but FIRST......you must get the basics on your medical situation situated. Call the social workers, the county, get as MUCH help as you can

yeah

get the baseline covered....make the STEP

im fearing having to withdraw from all this shit

then you can take the next step

i just had a beer

taste good? been clean and sober since 2005

damn

good for you, i cant fathom that

im a weed smoker/drinker. no cigs, no other drugs. but ya

copes

crutches, i know

Yeah.....IBM asked me to "retire" or be fired because of my drink and drug problem. had to rebuild. parents would not speak to me........really rough times....now, not like your situation......

oh you must not be American right?

I am a US Citizen and a Californian.

oh shit haha, i just thought the way you worded it sounded british

im californian too. but in oregon right now

I will take THAT as a compliment. Wish I was a Brit and I would have that posh accent

im a good guy guys. i am. i know that sounds whack but my inner monologue very rarely is nice to me

one of my favorite comedies is British

tv shows

That's understandable Sam....you are in a bad situation right now. That is a truth. Its a reality. You have accepted that. You can only go up from here

this channel is amazing

i love you all. i swear. i was in hysterics and now i feel ok

My mom was British (welsh acutally...no sheep jokes) but hey..........she's gone.....and she didn't see me "turn my life around" a regret I have

I am glad you feel a bit better. Know you are loved and liked by me, and I can speak for the rest of the lads here too!

i got everyones back too man. i think im all vented out

Hey.....look.....we are here for you, and if you would like.......in the future, I would be willing to give you my celli so you could call me......you know, since we are both Californians

its a new reality for me, i have no assistance for my medical issues anymore. im on my own. thats it in plain english. it sounds like im blowing it up but its my reality and damn will it be expensive and i will probably have to work more than i ever have ever

but, maybe i can do something with this

i have to have some hope

It will be expensive, but you there are groups (public and private) that can and WILL help you. If they offer, or you find the help. TAKE IT

damn man

i am curious about the amount of coritsol in my brain right now

the cliche thing that SJWs say when they're triggered

"i am shaking right now"

well, i am, and its like uncontrollable. and i havent eaten today im just like not hungry

Eat a little something before sleep tonight