Im 35. Male. I transitioned to woman when i was 22. I thought being a woman was what i wanted. And it was at the time. I was happy for at least 5 years. I got to dress how i wanted and act as feminine as i liked. i felt free. But it was a lie. It always was. I was 22 i was a kid. I needed therapy not fucking surgery. I have silicone bags on my chest and my face is unrecognizable after all the surgeries. Theres no going back. My voice will never be what it was either. Im male and ill always be and no surgery will change that. Im a monster. i paid people to cut off my penis. I needed help. I liked when people validated my feleings and told me i was female. Its what i wanted. I liked when peopl syruggled to call me she. I liked the attention. I loved that and im so fucking ashamed. I was so narcissitic and nobody said anything. I was a child I didnt know shit. the men that date me only want fetish sex and no straight woman will date me cause i dont have a dick and no lesbian will date me cause im a man. My parents divorced because of my transition. My friends told me they were bigots. They werent. They loved me. My friends lied to me. No good friend supports this lie. I needed fucking help. Im a mutilated man that is doomed to be lonely forever. I fucking hate this. Fuck
