i found a way to conquer certain parts of myself

when i achieve a higher state of mind i can almost separate the different entities that make up my soul

nigger you arent trans wtf is this larp

you are a boring nobody

shut the fuck up

you dont matter

cosmos doesnt care

youre machine oil

in the great cog

sometimes its from meditation and sometimes from psychedelics

@ysiel https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QsR8zBh6EdE

i dont care if you dont care

good

first step

im explaining to you my experience

do you care if you donnt care that you dont care about yourself

yes

stop hurting yourself fucking, i swear to god humanity is self imposing themselves to hell

first instinct: hurt myself

hurt my being, hurt my body, hurt my soul

hurt myself in what manner

"uhhh let me dress up in a fucking piece of cotton and paint myself and douse myself in artificial serotonin and female orgasm analogs"

"im sure ill be happy then"

generalized lunacy

GENERALIZED; NON SPECIFIC; JUST THERE

what would be the alternative?

its like tying a kniife to your thigh and then wondering why your leg fucking bleeds when walking

you fucking embrace the utter absolute heatfucked insanity

you stop

digesting these nonesense narratives of happiness

BIG POINT: it isnt there

your happiness isnt here nor there it doesnt exist in a future

so stop

fucksksksksk

i stopped drugs, alcohol, whatever

better to have clarity in insanity

that is modernity

just

dont sell your fucking soul to material constraints

or political affiliations

because nobody cares